Dear Love

Time

how amazing is it that i found my best friend and lover all in one, we play sports, we talk about everything, anything and nothing all in one conversation. I do cross country, you do football. I do soccer and basketball, you do basketball and soccer, so we rarely go to each other's game, sad face. I do track & field and softball. you do baseball and track & field. so you can say that we both run, we're always running and running. 

i wake up at 4 am everyday to go run and shower at 5 am leave the house at 5:50 am. Don't leave the school until 7 pm, sometimes 8:30 depending on how the coach feels on the day. I come home and i have about 2 hours worth of homework, don't forget to run for 30 min when i go home and then hit the showers, after the shower, dinner time/homework. 

At 7 am, school has started for me, everyone who knows me, understands that from 10:30-11:30 AM is my nap-time, now i know we don't have nap-times anymore because we're all "grown up", fuck that. I need my nap-times, that is where i escape all the inescapable, all the demons, ghouls and witches. In my nap-times, i can dream about anything and everything.  

Wednesdays, after practice head straight to church, I help teach a class and i really enjoy it because we are learning and growing together. That's my busiest day. wednesday, I don't get home until around 10pm, and still have to shower, do homework and study. 

Now let's take Thursdays, work all day from 8:30-5pm, come back and go to practice then go to church again. 

You see, i have it all but the one thing that i don't have is time. That is the one thing that everyone wants more of and they really can't seem to get enough of because of the fact that we are slaves to time. 

Still the one thing that I never had, I gave to you. In between water breaks, and stretching, i would send you a quick text, "at practice, text you later, BE GOOD!!" No matter what in the world i was doing, you were always on my mind and in my heart. I could be having a mental breakdown and you would text me saying, "be calm, always remember to breathe and you are never alone." 

Time, even though neither of us really had much time in our busy schedules, we would always find a way to give each time. i don't care if it was for 10 seconds, just to know that you care and you know that i care about you. I'm sorry my love, I'm sorry I wasn't worth your time.