D. Gray - man [ laven ] FanFiction- Scotomaphobia

CHAPTER 1- Fragmented

End of the Mission Chapter 1: Fragmented

I opened my eyes and looked around but all I could see was white. What happened? "I-I I can't see..?" Confusion and worry flood my system. I wish I am wrong, I wish that this wasn't permanent and it would go away in a minute or two...

But it already had come to pass such a brief span of time, the continuance abiding more than a quarter of an hour I postulated. I couldn't recollect precisely how long. As time was such alike to a diabolical creature that cruelly took away the very breath of life to creatures not limited to beings that moved across the earth.

"Allen-kun? What's wrong? Did you say something?" The voice was recognizable, familiar, comforting.

Who was it? The answer came to my mind, it was obvious as this is who I had gone on the mission with. Was something wrong with my memory?

"Lavi? Is that you?" I reached towards where his voice had came from but my hand reached nothing but empty air. Panic. I felt a hand touch my arm and grabbed the arm connected to it. Worriedly I asked "What happened? Why can't I see you?"

The feeling of not seeing.

Not knowing.

Nothingness.

It made me sick to my stomach.

What had happened and what was wrong with me?

-Lavi-

I looked at Allen as he closed and opened his eyes. 'What the..?' I asked myself. I heard Allen whisper, as if to himself "I-I I can't see?" With that comment I knew it wasn't good. 'Shit' I mentally cursed, 'Does he mean blind...?' I looked into his eyes and I knew. 'Shit shit shit shit,' I put aside my observations and acted like I didn't hear or notice anything. I wasn't supposed to after all.....

I shouldn't be panicked

"Allen-kun? What's wrong? Did you say something?" 'Please tell me I'm wrong.' But I knew I wasn't. My observations and 'instinct' were almost always right.

I had been trained to make correct observations. And I could recognize that at this instant I was emotion ridden, and those emotions were affecting my abilities.

"La-vi?" The white haired boy questioned, his voice was shaking. He reached next to me but his searching fingers reached thin air. "Is that you?" I touched his arm. Panic had set in when Allen had felt nothing and I wanted nothing more than to comfort him. To draw him into my arms, pet his soft snow white hair, and calm him down but I couldn't. I couldn't have a heart. I shouldn't feel anything.. but I did and still do.. all because of the injured teen in front of me. Allen grabbed my arm and with his worry evident in his voice the teen began to speak. "What happened? Why can't I see you?"

"Allen," I drew out his name a bit longer than I should, only fractionally. "Do you remember you told me to get the innocence while you held off the akuma?"

There was a pause. A brief amount of time. Allen was clearly paying attention, almost hanging onto my every word. "I don't know what happened while I was gone but when I came back after retrieving the innocence I saw that you were fighting a level four. I saw it attack you and you didn't fight back. You actually dis-invoked your innocence, So I finished it off..." I studied Allen's facial expression as I recounted the event and I could tell he didn't remember any of it.

When I ended my explanation there was a brief moment where I wasn't speaking and Allen made no attempt to speak either. I could tell that there was many a thoughts going through his head. He was either attempting to remember or processing the information I just told him or even possibly trying to come up with solutions. I played out the situation in my mind. I thought of how this would flow how it would play out in the future. I doubted that his eyesight would come back naturally. Maybe there was someone in the science section who could figure out what happened? If what happened became clear.. Then so should the solution.

"Allen, I need you to tell me if you remember anything that happened at all."

In a saddened and troubled voice Allen responded. "I don't know... I can't..."

"Please can you try?" I was holding his shoulders, I was desperate. 'Why?' A nagging voice seemed to ask me. I brushed the comment aside, leaving my direct attention on the person before me. The said exorcist shook his head.

"I told you Lavi, I can't!" I ignored the fact there were a few tears in his eyes.

Yet again the world around us turned into its natural silence. I let go of Allen's shoulders letting my hands fall to my sides. However unanticipated Allen's right hand caught my arm. I let it stay there, hanging in the middle of the air between us. He needed something he could feel. Or else he would be completely lost in his sightless world.

I finally cleared my throat, it seemed like ages, however it was under half a minute. 27 seconds of silence. I responded in a neutral voice, "We will go back to HQ and have Komui look at you. We'll see what he says, alright?" I watched Allen as he nodded and I sucked in a deep breath. 'Lets hope this works'