Trouble

Chapter 3

It's another rainy day in New York. I decided to take the day off; I don't know if I can be around Jimmy at the office all day. I've had a constant knot in my stomach ever since we had sex. My phone buzzes and I pick it up off the bathroom counter.
Shannon
-Okay 1 o'clock at Boule & Cheri? I neeed coffee!

-Perfect!
I have about an hour to get ready to meet Shannon. I'm so nervous to talk to her even though she's always been my shoulder to cry on. I could tell her anything.. hopefully. It's been raining lately but it's not too cold so I wore some leggings and a black windbreaker. I decided to skip the makeup today and throw my hair up in a messy bun. The rain is light so I decide to walk the few blocks to the restaurant. Walking through the rain has always helped me clear my thoughts, but I can't get my mind off of Jimmy. I pull out my phone to tell Shan I'm almost there when it starts ringing. Jimmy? Shit, why is he calling me?? I don't know what to say to him. I let it go to voicemail. Not even a minute later he calls me again. I feel like I might throw up if I talk to him.

-Why are you avoiding me?

I can't right now. I'm trying to get him out of my head. I get to the restaurant and Shannon already has table, thank god, because the line is long. She waves me over smiling. God I missed her; I hadn't seen her in a few weeks because of work so I'm glad she was free. She gives me a much needed hug and we sit down. "Have you been here before?" I shake my head. "Well their tomato and bleu cheese quiche is delish!"
"Ugh, eggs, eww," I stick my tongue out.
"Right, I totally forgot!" We order and catch up on life until our food arrives. I ordered a salad, french fries and my favorite blended mocha. "Okay, so spill. What's up with you?" My stomach turns and I feel less hungry. I stopped thinking about it while we were catching up. "I- slept with a guy," I pause and she looks confused. "And he's married.." It's taste like vomit coming out of my mouth.
"Do I know him?"
"No," I lie. She might be able to guess if I tell her the truth.
"Okay, well, what happened? How do you feel?"
I try and leave out as many details as possible, I don't think I should tell her it was Jimmy. "Honestly, we were just talking, and then we were kissing..and then we were on the couch.. " I shrug and I feel my face get hot with embarrassment. " I don't regret it, like I kind of like this guy, but I feel sick like I might screw up his marriage."
"Well obviously the right thing to do is to end it. Just cut him out, at least for a while, ya know?" I nod, but how do I cut my boss out of my life? I feel so sick I can't finish my food. We pay for our food walk outside where it's pouring. "I'll see you soon, ok? Call me for anything."
"Thanks babe," I smile. Shannon offered to go on a shopping spree but I think I should just go home, my head is too foggy and I know I won't be any fun. I hail a cab to take me to my apartment. I watched movies the rest of the afternoon and fell asleep around four. Hours later I was woken up by my phone ringing. I groggily grab my phone and answer it without looking. "Hello?"
"Hi honey. You okay? You sound upset." Mom. I miss her so much.
"Yeah, yeah, just tired," I say. At least it's half true. I don't like lying to her.
"How's work going?"
"It's good; it's really busy. How are you and dad?"
"We're both good. We miss you a lot."
"Aw mom, I miss you too," I yawn.
"I can tell you're tired hun, so I'll let you go, but call me soon ok?"
"Of course, mom, love you."
"Love you too! Bye," she says softly. I hang up and fall asleep within minutes.