chapter 5
It's Friday :) 23 reads I'm pretty happy :) it's a short one soz
Nialls pov.
Sometimes I'm scared of our fandom they get photos like this, they can leak our song which I find so irritating because its not as fun to sell it that day cause they have already heard it what's the fun in that?
I have so many bloody interviews to do here in Brisbane what if they ask about lily what if they ask if i like her i can't say no that would be lieing, but what if she doesn't feel the same way?what if she has already friend zoned me? What if I can't get out of the friend zone?
I really like lily. I love the way she smiles, the way her eyes sparkle, her everything! I've never felt like this what if she is the one? "I'm going to bed" I say before I start stressing out. I grab lily and wrap my arms around her and whisper "it's ok ill sort it out" but she doesn't look so convinced "you can try" she tells me.
'Goodnight beautiful try to sleep tonight X' I send to lily hoping she will read it before she goes to bed.
There's a knock at the door of my room i look at my phone it 3 am who is up right now? I open the door to see a dark figure as I'm inbraced by a hug. I turn the lights on to see a very sleepless, and teary face. "I can't do it anymore, I just can't" she says and grabs a knife from her pocket, I quickly grab it from her hands before she can harm her self . "Lily what are you doing people love you!" I shout at her "he called me again he is coming to Brisbane tomorrow" she starts to sob again "come and lie down" I say grabbing her and hugging her very tightly.
"I don't want him to hurt her, I can't let him hurt her" lily tells me after we lay on my bed facing each other "he want i won't let him near you I promise" i say before I wrap my arm around the side of her body " people love you, you can't kill yourself" I say in a soft voice "the only person who loves me is grace" she lies she really dosent know how much I care, how much I do... I cut off my thinking i couldn't deal with that right now "what are you thinking about niall?" Lily asks of corse she had to notice how deep i was in my thoughts "oh nothing really, just how tired I am" I lie and I'm ashamed of it "what are you thinking about?" I ask "the same but I don't want to go back there not in that massive black room all by myself" she tells me "where is grace?" I question "she went and slept with Harry cause she had a nightmare" she tells me "well you stay right here" I say not letting her have an option but she only smiles.
She's so peaceful like this, so beautiful, so delicate and after admiring her for 5 minutes i fall asleep.
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I wake up to find the other side of the bed empty and the knife gone! I jump up out of bed not even caring how I look "lily where are you!!?" I scream not hearing a reply im running around, checking every room. i sprint to the kitchen to find her singing to a tune as she cooked. i run up behind and hug her so very tight. "Good morning sleepy head" she says, wraping her hands around my neck. she hug me and then gets back to cooking, right there i colampes to my knees and she sees me fall and quickly try's to pick me up but it's no use. "Niall are you ok?" She questions "yer I just saw the knife was gone and I.. I was affriad" I try to say but I can't get it out seeing what I thought had happened played in my head, finding her dead i just couldn't take it. A small little tear rolls down my face and she realises what I was trying to say "oh niall I'm so sorry i didn't mean to scare you I just needed it for the bacon I'm so sorry" she says as she quickly wraps her arms around me " I'm so sorry" she repeats over and over agian "please don't kill yourself" I tell her as more tears run down my face " I promise" she says as she wipes my tears away with her thumbs.
We had sat there for 10 minutes hugging each other both sobbing dreading of what could have happened, but we managed to find the strength to get up. I hug her once more not wanting to let go as i place my chin on the top of her head, she fits so perfectly.
I stay beside her not letting her out of my site, she knows i care about her, but not they way I see her. We eat breakfast in silence until i broke it "lily I.. I well i really like" I say struggling to get it out but my mind takes over "this meal how did you cook it, it's perfect" 'just like you' I mentally add i really wish I could tell her how I feel but I can never find the right time.
I try to keep her busy so she dosent have to worry about her dad we have already walked to the vending machine 3 times just to get me a packet of chips, of corse we shared them.
I learnt a bit more about her like she use to have a brother called Nathan and when he was about 6 he was in a car accident with his grandmother and the he didnt make it. She didnt find it hard to tell me that story it's like it happened ages ago... Well it accually did Nathan would be 23 this year so i guess she was only about 3 and couldn't really remember him.
She told me more about her mum and how she was her role model, and tried to describe her. We also talked about plenty of other things.
"Let's go for a swim, I'm bored and I haven't been swimming in ages" I beg. "Yer ok let's go it better be heated" she teases. I run to my room to put my swimmers on. She was ready to go in like 5 minutes and did she look good in a bikini, it was a nice orange coloured one but it really suited her she had a great tan. There was a scare on her belly i asked her what was it from but she acted like she couldn't her me.
We splashed around in the pool for hours "what are you gonna say to the interviewers about you know" lily questioned "I really don't know" I say with pure honesty "what if your fans hate me?" She replies with "they cant hate you, because we are just friends its not like we are dating" i say and I feel an ache in my heart a longing for her. "I guess I'm glad you had today off" lily say trying to get off the conversation " yer I had the whole day to spend with you" i say and I can see how she blushes and its adorable.
Yes so that's chapter 5 and guys I'm sick of the bad side of the fandom one directions new song 'best song ever' has already been leaked! And there is still 3 days until it actually comes out that's sad! I'm so angry at this fandom right now! And I know there are good directioners that wont watch it and I'm on that side and I hope who ever leaked it feels bad!!!!
