Closet Love

{9}It's a Damn Good Sin

Lucas' POV

I blushed hard, thinking about what Josh thought we were doing. And then remembered Josh was homophobic. I looked back at Brooks and saw a small smile playing at his lips. I wanted to giggle but I controlled my urge to do so.

"Oh um its not wha-" I started to say but I was distracted from the hot, ragged breaths on my face.

Brooks ignored Josh's presence completely. He was panting for some unknown reason.

"You're so cute"
Brooks whispered softly

Something fluttered in my chest and I found it hard to breath.

His eyes lit up and before I could register anything, Brooks smashed his lips on mine.

The feel of his lips on mine made my mind go haywire. I closed my eyes. This was the first time I was kissing a boy and oh god this felt so right so wonderful.

The kiss only lasted a few seconds and I had only started to kiss him back when he was harshly yanked away from me.

Josh's eyes were burning with hatred and something else I couldn't place. Was a thirteen year old's homophobia that bad?

"You fucking creep! You assaulted my best friend! Little faggot how dare you come close to him and do such unspeakable things. Its a sin! You'll go to hell for this. Stay away from him!"

Josh yelled at Brooks

I winced and tried to stop them because Brooks didn't say anything . He just laughed

"Do you think I care? I did not 'assault' anybody. I liked him. I kissed him. Its as simple as that. And for your 'homo is a sin crap' let me tell you, i have read the bible and among homosexuality, wearing ripped jeans is a sin, hitting people is a sin, wearing two different fabrics is a sin, cheating is a sin, lying is a sin, eating without praying is a sin. If there are so many sins and people do them anyway, why the hell do I need to care that I like boys or not? If it is a sin let it be a sin. It is damn good sin though." At this he looked at me and I blushed.

Josh faced me.
"Do you hear him? He just threw himself at you and you're allowing it? He's such a faggot and he kissed you! Its wrong so wrong! You do know what God does to people like him right? Why are you looking at me like that? Kick him out of the house. You're with me right?"

"No."
This single syllable made me feel stronger and made Josh look at me with an incredulous look in his eyes.

"No I'm not gonna kick him out bec-"
I was cut off by the door to my bedroom swinging open.

My mother came in and saw the three of us.
"Oh am I interrupting something?I'm sorry I didn't realise you had friends over. Josh's mom called, she wants him home "

Josh looked taken aback, then he glared at Brooks then me and went through the door along with my mom with squared shoulders and an angry look on his face.

I looked over at Brooks who looked flustered. He looked at me with a questioning look in his eyes.

"Yeah, I'm gay" I said softly.

His eyes immediately lit up and he came forward and grabbed my waist.

My breath hitched.

I didn't know if this was what I wanted but oh god it felt so good.

"I'm sorry I um did that in front of Josh but oh god save me you looked downright adorable at that moment and I just couldn't resist.."

"Shh.. stop talking, its alright.You did what I could never do and anyway I liked kissing you"

I did not miss his sharp intake of breath and I felt proud for having that affect on anyone.

I leaned forward and a second later his lips were on mine.

I had never kissed anyone before and this was all new to me. I might've been a little sloppy but Brooks didn't seem to mind.

One of his hands traveled up from my waist on the nape of my neck. His hands were soft just like...just like Josh's.

Oh god oh god oh god.
I'm still not over him lord save me.

Here I am kissing one of the most hottest guys in middle school and all I can think about how his hands are like Josh's and how wonderful it would be if the pair of lips on mine would be his.

I can't do this to Brooks, no.

I gently broke away from the kiss and laid my forehead against his.

"I can't do this to you"

"What?" Brooks' eyes met mine.

"I know I'm attracted to you, I mean its hard not to. But I also have feelings for someone else. I need to sort my feelings out because I honestly don't deserve you, and you don't deserve this. "

Brooks had a pained expression on his face. "Its Josh isn't it?"

I swallowed painfully.

He sighed " Okay, thanks for being honest with me"

"We can still be friends, right?" I whispered hopefully.

His hands left my waist and he winked at me.

"You bet."
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Am I going too fast?
Anyways everyone needs to read this:

I had to use the F-word, i was cringing when I did so because I hate that word. Never ever under any circumstances use that word. And being Gay isn't an insult and calling them Faggot doesn't do anything other than disrespect the hundreds of lgbt lives that were lost in the 'gay holocaust'. Yes thats right, lgbt people were forcefully wrapped into cloths and then burnt to death in front of the the whole town together, just to prove the point that Lgbt people are in fact worthless like cigarettes and dont deserve anything more than being burnt alive.

So next time you try to insult somebody dont use the word faggot bc
A) loving people isn't an insult???

B) disrespecting people who died because they love somebody, tells me a lot about the kind of person you are.

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