Absolute Zero (A Stiles Stilinski/Teen Wolf Fanfiction) [4]

Chapter 22 - Control

I sat in the passenger seat of Chris's Tahoe. My hands were balled into fists in my lap. I could feel the full moon like never before. I knew it was going to happen tonight. I knew that my mother was going to get what she wanted with me becoming a hybrid. I just wish I was as good at controlling it as I was at teaching control to others. Turns out it's not as easy as it seems.

The Calaveras were following behind us. They would be able to help us take down Kate better than anyone. They can deny it all they want, but she's a hunter. That makes her their responsibility too. Besides, with them focusing on Kate I can do what I need to do. I can take down Peter.

This is what it's all come down to. This will either end with my mother getting what she really wanted all along, or myself taking matters into my own hands. She doesn't get to choose my life for me, not anymore. I'm my own person now. It's my time to decide how my story is going to end. I know what I'm capable of; I am a warrior now. I am someone to fear, not hunt.

I am a broken person because of her, but that doesn't mean I have to feel like one. I am stronger now than she could have ever anticipated me to be. She may have destroyed hundreds of lives, but she doesn't get the final say in mine.

"Emma," started Chris. "You feel okay?"

My chest was heaving as I fought to stay in control. Thinking about my mother only made me more angry. The sun was going down, which meant I didn't have much time before the full moon makes its appearance. I have a couple of hours to learn how to control these abilities.

"Just drive faster," I said, sharply. 

"Are you sure it's a good idea for you to be here?" Parrish asked from the backseat. 

I dug my fingernails into the palms of my hands. Pain keeps you human. "My mother started this with me. So I'm gonna finish it."

Kate is out there right now with Scott and Kira, doing god knows what to them. She could be in on my mother's plan too for all I know. She is the one that set the Hale fire. I have to get there and I have to save them. I have to protect my friends from my own fate.

I was getting a nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was making it harder for me to control these new urges. Scott had told me before, when I was about to let my darkness in again after we left Stiles at Eichen House, to be my own anchor. I was trying, but it's hard to be your own anchor when you don't even know who you are anymore. I used to be so sure about where I stand, about where I come from. Now, my entire existence is swirled in ambiguity. 

I pulled my phone out of my pocket, dialing Stiles's number. I just needed to hear his voice. I needed him to be my anchor again, to keep me grounded. The rings felt piercing as I held my phone up to my ear. My senses have never been heightened like this before.

"Emma?" He answered. I didn't say anything. I wanted him to keep talking. "Everything okay? Are you almost there?"

"I'm fine," I said. I could already feel my heartbeat beginning to steady. "We're probably an hour or so out. What about you?"

"You're not far behind us then," he said. "Are you sure you're okay? What about the full moon?"

"I'm handling it," I said. "What about Liam?"

"Well, he hasn't killed us yet, so I guess we're alright,"

I gave a small laugh. I know Eric and Derek are with him, so they should be able to take care of Liam if anything happens. They've both trained their fair share of werewolves as well. I wish I could have gone with Stiles but I'm almost afraid of what I'm capable of. I killed someone without having claws and fangs. Who knows what I could do with them.