What's one more? (sequel to The Cut Only Gets Deeper)

bria's pov

I roll over and hit something hard...the floor. groaning, i get up, shaking my head a little.  I walk into the kitchen and do my regular routine.  turning on the coffee maker, turning on the news, grabbing the mail, and getting my coffee.  I fix my cup and settle down on one of the kitchen stools.  

I listen to the news for a couple of minutes, becoming instantly bored.  Nothing excting had happen lately.  "blah blah blah.  Yes the weather will be rainy, but i'm probably lying to you and it'll be blazing hot out." I mock the weather man as I sip my coffee.  Grabbing my phone, i check for any message.  I had two new message.  One from Niall and one from Zayn.  Both saying goodmoring.  

the last couple months have been a blur.  Zayn and I have been dating since the day the lads had come to visit 3 months ago.  It seems like forever but has really been no time at all.  And being his girlfriend is amazing.  He is sweet, yet somehow dangerous, mainly in a sexy way.  He adorable, yet the sexiest man i have been with.  I haven't been happier.  Niall took it perfectly well and isn't awkward or anything.  He is quite happy actually.  I'm glad.  Otherwise I would have felt worse if i knew he was aching because of me.  

I get up to go get ready for the gym when I hear something unexpected on the news.  Something about one direction.  Seeing how my boyfriend is in the band, i try and know what's going on.  I sit back down with my coffee and watch. 

"well chip, what news have we one the music in the world today?  

"it seems that the very popular band One Direction are at it agian.  creating chaos throughtout the pants of many teenage girls.  But...it turns out that as of 2 days ago, only 2 of the 5 are taken with girlfriends.  Louis Tomlinson is with Eleanor Calder and Zayn Malik is dating Perrie Edwards, from the girlband Little Mix.  Cute couple aren't they?  I believe so.  Though it makes me wonder what happened to Bria daly and Niall Horan.  Lovely couple weren't they"  

But i wasn't listening anymore. I had spit out my coffee as soon as I heard about Zayn apparently dating some other girl.  I took a deep breath and got my temper under control.  I grab my phone and see quite a few text messages from zayn and the other lads.  I wasn't going to let them know this got under my skin.  

I send a quick group text to all of them.  

*relax guys.  it's whatever if my boyfriend is apparently dating another girl.  don't freak*  

I get quite a few confused messages back but ignore them and the nervous feeling in my stomach that was growing.  I head to my room and change into a pair of yoga pants and a workout tank top.  grabbing my ipod and sneakers, i leave my phone on the counter and head out the front door for a jog.  I needed to clear my head and think of any reason for this news.  

Why would they say zayn was dating someone else when basically everyone knew i was dating him? and why would they bring back up Niall and I when they also knew that was over months ago?  Was it a publicity stunt to get that girlband more popular? Date someone from the most popular band and hopefully get some more attention. But why zayn?  why not Niall or harry?  I shake my head and just focusing all my energy into this jog.  

Finishing with I think 6 miles, i head back and take a quick shower, ignoring the constant buzzing of my phone.  After getting dressed in sweats and a t-shirt I grab the phone and see over 20 texts from various people and quite a few voicemails.  I don't know why everyone was worked up about this. 

Then something hit me.  In the messages i got from zayn none of them actually explain anything. I hit the dial button and he picks up on the second ring. 

"Bria!  Oh god bria!  I thought that I would be able to explain everything before they actually aired it. I'm sorry."  he whispers the last part and I could tell he was exhausted from worrying.  But I don't comfort him because I deseve to hear what is actually going on. 

"so?  what's going on?" i ask after a moment of silence. 

"oh!  so Little Mix is a girl band and they wanted help getting their music more popular so our managment and their managment signed a contract that one of would 'date' each other and we would help promote their album.  I have no idea why they picked me though.  management knew i was dating you.  They could have picked Niall or harry.Or even Liam"  He sounded upset and i could tell because he kept cutting his words short.  I wish he was here and not half way across the world.  Long distance is hard.  not going to lie.  

"well don't worry about it ok babe?  Just reasure it isn't real."  I almost beg the last part.  I knew that some part inside of me was afraid of losing him to yet again some other woman.  

"It isn't real babe.   I love you.  You know that."  even though we say it often, hearing him say thought three words still give me butterflies.  I grin, happy to hear it from him.  

"i love you too.  Alright.  I've got to go now babe.  Got some cleaning to do.  apartment is a mess."

"ok.  well  don't have too much fun cleaning without me ok?" I can almost hear him smirk through the phone. 

"i'll try."  i giggle and we hang up.  relief swarms me and suddenly i am exhausted.  I needed to relax or something.  A bath might do the trick.  Heading toward the bathroom, i turn the water to hot and put in the plug. putting in some scented bubble stuff zayn got me, i undress and get in, letting the water rise around me.  i sigh, feeling content.  As much as i hate to admit it, I was afraid of losing Zayn.  

I let out the breath i realized i was holding and rubbed my hand over my wrists subconsciously.  feeling some of the larger, yet still small scars.  A horrid thought spread throughout my mind as i continued feeling down my thighs and wrists.  Something I hadn't thought about in awhile.  

alright guys...well first chapter of the  sequel is here.  hope you like it.  i just want to let you know right now that i absolutey adore perrie and this is at all a hate toward perrie fanfiction.  i think she is beautiful and would give anything to be her.  Just clearing that up.  And one more thing...i realize if i did a more realistic type fanfiction it would nothing compared to "After" but the fact that i was told that...it hurt.  I don't wanna take it personally because i know it's true.  I love "after"and "after 2".  i spent 7 hours straight reading the first book. plus please don't tell me that my writing has no competiton with "after".  it is rude and hurts.  But I understand.  

anyways...thanks for reading this guys.  hope you like it as much as the first one!

-gayle  xx