My life feels like its spinning in a tornado.
I have lost all control of my life and lost all reasons to be alive. And this feeling is weird because it's always there it's just at certain time it just gets unbearable. I try to wait it out, I try to self harm it out and now it's to the point to where it's got me thinking. Maybe the only way out is to die just not be here I can control that happened but for some reason I can't bring myself to end my life or get close to ending my life. I just sit and think of the multiple reasons why I should and multiple reasons how I should. Tbh I feel like I wouldn't mind killing myself I just honestly want the perfect way to do it 😪 I feel ashamed even typing this but it's true.
