Scallison AUs

Hey, Scott.

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~ Allison's P.O.V. ~

"Hey, Scott. It's been a while, hasn't it? Yeah, I haven't seen you, or even talked to you in 5 months. It sucks." A tear rolls down my cheek, but I keep talking. 

"Yeah, I guess I'm good, but nothing's really been the same since the accident. I've, um, I've started talking to myself a lot lately, and uh -" My voice falters and a sob escapes my throat, rolling into the comfortable silence of the cemetery.

"I've started talking to myself, and waiting for responses because I've been so used to you being there, but now you're dead and I can't handle it, and--" I drop to my knees and lay my head at the base of Scott's grave, an endless stream of tears rolling down my cheeks and soaking into the dirt beneath me. I sit up, and I see the fresh flowers I've lain across his grave, and I keep talking.

"I can't handle it, Scott. I need you. That stupid motorcycle..." More tears make their way down my face. "You shouldn't have gone out, but you did, and you're dead, and Stiles won't leave the house. He says there's no point. You're his best friend, Scott. He needed you. We all needed you. We all really need you here right now.. You're the one that always makes things better.

"Kira's locked her door and she won't come out of her room, no matter how hard we try. Scott, sometimes I can hear her crying through her door, and it breaks my heart." 

I pick up a flower and twirl it in my hands, smiling at it sadly as the tears keep flowing. "Lydia screamed. She screamed for hours.  She didn't stop until her eyes were dried out and her voice was gone... She misses you so, so much."

I look at Scott's grave and keep talking. "Liam... Liam's gone. He couldn't stay here, so he left and joined a new pack. Nobody knows where he is.."

I stand up. "Your Mom.. She's so strong, Scott. She goes to work, and she comes home and eats. She takes care of herself, Scott. She tries to take care of everyone else too. She's doing great."

"And me?? I can't even explain it. I feel so empty, Scott. You were a huge piece of me, and now I feel like I'm stuck in a limbo, like none of this is real, even though I know it is. I know, because for three months I barely ate, and for three months I felt like killing myself and after four months, I tried it. You were my anchor, Scott. Now I'm just lost here, floating, trying to fix everyone and everything around us at the same time, and it's not working.

"I'm trying so hard, Scott. I'm trying so, so hard. You know I am. But I don't know how long we can go like this. No matter what I do to move on from this, deep down inside I know that I'll never get to hug you again, and it fucking hurts. Just know, that I love you, Scott McCall. I love you."

I start walking away from the fresh flowers, from the vast emptiness of the cemetery, from the memories that haunt me. I walk away from Scott's grave and get into my car. I whisper, "We love you," into the silence and drive off, pain stinging my heart and the taste of tears on my lips.

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OH MY GOD WHY DID I WRITE THIS IT HURTS IM CRYING SO HARD

Fuck, man

So this is the ending to Scallison AUs (part one)

Read 'Scallison AUs - Part Two' for more!

~ Taylor <3

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