Book of Poems.....

Memories

I remember wen I was 8 yrs old

I was livin from pillow to post

I seen my dad once

Rest of the time he was ghost

Got 5 other siblings

But we not even close

Some parts of me missin

I need em the most

Nobody can fix me

I will always be broke

I have so many memories

U just do not kno

I have so many memories

U just do not kno

Young boy born in Jersey

Stayed wit my mom til I was 8

I was so skinny so hungry

Many nights no food on my plate

Somehow mom got help

Got assistance from the state

So the food came

But the lights went

the bills was always late

I got abused from different directions

I started to fill wit hate

Im ice cold

No emotions

It felt normal to be this way

I got put into school

I was happy wen I went

That was my Way out

I didn't go much

I missed many days

Was old enough

But didn't kno how to count

ain't that a shame

That added fuel to my flame

Became much meaner

Had nothing to gain

Nothin to gain but pain

I viewed everything wit much distain

Even the men that momma dated

I never liked one

All were hated

They tried to to get close

But we never related

one specific was antwione

The very first sight I wanted him gone

Wen mom turned her back

He treated me wrong

I tried to fight back

But I was too small

And obviously i wasn't too strong

To reach a breaking point

It didn't take long

Cuz one day I seen him

Take over my mother

I grabbed a knife

I attempted to cut em

The look on his face

Changed all of a sudden

From that day forward

There was zero discussion

It was fine by me

I brushed it off

Cuz to me he is lower than nothin