Tell Me A Lie. (Zalfie)

Alfie

Alfie

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The moment I had left that hotel room all the shock that I had felt when I saw Zoe next to me had disappeared, and had instead been replaced with cold regret. How could I have been so stupid? How could I have ever let myself get so drunk around Zoe? How could I have let myself take advantage of her? The fact that Zoe would probably never trust me again, was what killed me the most. The idea of an actual relationship with her now seemed too distant. Who was I kidding it had been distant all the time, I mean I never actually stood a chance with her. She had friendzoned me badly.

A cruel thought snuck into my mind.

Even though I had used her, atleast I had gotten a chance to be as close to Zoe as I would ever be.

I stopped in my tracks as I reached the door to me and Marcus's hotel room. Leaning on the door with my arm, I put my head down and thought about the thought that had just popped into my head. I, Alfie Deyes, was angry at myself. How could I still be so immature to even think something like that.

Putting the key in the door, and gently opening it i was greeted by the sight of a passed out Marcus lying on the floor. Casper and Jack were passed out on the two beds. I walked in carefully to not wake them, and slowly tipped-toed to the nearest chair. I need something to distract me from all the invading thoughts, I pulled out my phone and browsed through all the usual sites.

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It had been a while since I had returned to the hotel room and in that time everybody had managed to wake up and head back to their own rooms. Me and Marcus were now alone.

"So Alfie..." He managed to brake through the awkward silence. I already knew what he was going to ask me.

"Marcus, can we not right now?"

" Alf, I want to know what happened last night with you and Zoe. I want to help you."

I was getting angry now.

" No, Marcus you don't NEED to know what happened. It is none of your business, but I don't want you to spread any rumors so I'm going to tell you."

I told Marcus some of the story, leaving out the most of the steamy details. I told him that we had gotten a little carried away, kissed and then left the club to go back to her hotel room. We just had just sat there for the rest of the night.

"So Alf, how do you feel, that is after you kissed her."

" I don't know Marcus, I was too drunk to remember." Lies. I remembered that kiss, and I would for ever. The taste of her lips, and the feel of them upon my own was magical. I had felt a mixture of pure raw love and lust in every part of me, and that was just the kiss. I still couldn't remember much after that, although some random details were slowly coming back to me.

Marcus remained silent after that. We had finished packing now and heading down to the lobby where we would meet Louise...and Zoe. I remained expressionless on the outside, so Marcus wouldn't question me, but on the inside I was dying. Me and Zoe's friendship would be quiet awkward and frankly impossible. I could just be friends anymore, that kiss had summed up everything that I had felt towards her and intensified it by 10 fold.

She had just come out of the lift wearing a flowing maxi dress that hugged her petite frame. I could help but imagine her without it on, without anything on.

The fact that I could only recall some of what had happened and had formed my curiosity. Unfortunately Marcus had noticed me staring.

"Man, you have been staring at her for soo long now. Something else did happen and I know it. Now spill."

Shit. I needed a distraction, I didn't know how much more I could lie. I looked back up at his face, his eyes were wide open and focused on something behind me. I turned around to see Zoe coming full speed straight towards me.

"Alf," she yelled,"we need to talk."

I nodded and she grabbed my hand and pulled me away to a secluded corner. That alone sent sparks shooting through my body.

"What is it Zo."

"Have you told Marcus that you spent the night in my room yet?"

"Yes I did, why should I have not?" I questioned apprehensively.

She looked down to the ground shuffling on the spot, obviously feeling awkward. "Ummm, well Louise..kind of heard..Louise knows I spent the night with someone yesterday, not sleeping."

I could feel myself self turn red, but for some strange reason I could help but smirk. "So we were that loud,huh." I muttered under my breath. She had heard me. Looking into my eyes she looked confused at first, and then managed to burst out laughing.

"Alf, you really do know how to say the wrong things at the wrong time. Any way I guess you can't take back what you said to Marcus. So guess we just are going to have to deny as much as we can."

"That might be hard now," I said as I fixed my gaze across the room to Marcus and Louise, chatting secretively obviously about us.

"Oh no. Alf, I know it may be hard to build back what we had, but I really want to try."

I was taken aback, split between two thoughts. I loved her to much to be around her as just friend anymore, but I needed her more than anyone in my life. It was an easy decision.

"Me too, Zo." I smiled at her and she smiled back. Standing on her tip toes she put her arms around my neck and hugged my tightly. I put my hands around her lower waist and pushed her against my body, gripping her tightly. My eyes shuttered close with pure pleasure, as more memories of last night came back to me as I felt her body close against mine. I wanted her, badly.

She pulled back, but not all the way and looked into my eyes and down at my lips. I did the same focusing on hers, I needed to kiss her. I leaned it and to my surprise so did she, and my lips met hers in a fury of passion. We continued kissing her and pulled her behind to the opposite side to th wall, so Marcus and Louise couldn't find us. The kiss hightened and I want more so I pushed her lips apart with my tongue and entered her mouth, my hands slowly moving down to her chest. She moaned deeply and I could feel one forming inside me too. I went down from her lips to her jaw and to her neck, slowly moving down to her near her chest, her maxi dress had a plunging neck line giving me easy access.

"I want you bad Zoe."

"Me too, Alf, but we can't. Not here."

"Yes, i know." I whispered as I kissed her passionatly one more time.

"I'll text you. Alf, it's going to be hard acting like we aren't attracted to each other. I don't know what this is, love or lust?"

This left me thinking. Did I really love her, or did I only want her in that way? Was this uncontrollable desire taking over me, disguising itself as false love? I didn't know, but I knew I had to find out.

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Making our way back, I could see Marcus and Louise giving us funny looks.

"Well, you guys were talking for a long time."

"Yeah, and Alfie did you apply a shade of lipstick to your lips?"

"Umm, well.." I started but was interrupted be Zoe.

"It was part of a bet, and he lost. So I got to put some lipstick on him."

"Oh.." That was all the said, and even though the could tell we were lying the had no choice but to believe it was true.

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Leaving the station I jumped as my phone vibrated on my pocket. I was still on edge after that makeout session with Zoe. I had left her room this morning think our relationship was ruined, and walked out of the hotel with a new kind of relationship all together.

The message was from Zoe:

I can't wait much longer. I need you, I'm coming over tommorow to "film a video" if anyone asks. -Zo

I bit my lip, in anticipation and I knew tonight I would be able to sleep.