Tell Me A Lie. (Zalfie)

What now?

Zoe

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I had had slowly awoken from my deep slumber by a slight shuffling next to me. Although I was too tired to open my eyes I could tell by the hard mattress that this sure wasn't my room. This was the hotel room I had rented in London just incase we had gotten a little too drunk at the club. Louise had a room next door, we had gotten seperate rooms for privacy. I sighed as I remembered yesterday night:

The smell of alcohol and the crowd of people had made me feel uneasy, so Alfie had suggested we go to a private table at the edge of the club. I was only slightly drunk, but Alfie was completly wasted. We slid into the booth and Alfie wrapped his arms around my waist, and I let him for some reason. Normally I wouldn't have, as feelings of love and lust towards my best friend would resurface if we ever got this close. I had realized early on during our friendship that I wanted him, but I had forced myself to control these overwhelming emotions to keep myself from doing something that would ruin our friendship. As I felt his warm, strong arms around my waist I couldn't help but feel completly safe. I looked up, only to see him looking straight at me, the foolish drunk grin that was on his face was gone and replaced by an expression of pure lust. Did he want me as much as I wanted him?

'Obviously not, he was drunk,' I thought to myself, ' He would never love me like I loved...'

My thoughts had been cut short only by the taste of Alfie's warm lips upon mine, and although I knew it was wrong I couldn't pull away. I had waited for this for so long.

I didn't stop as his tongue entered my mouth. I didn't stop as he picked me up and carried me out of the bar. I didnt even bother to stop as I lead him up to the hotel room I had rented. I couldn't stop and I knew even if I wasn't drunk I still would have kept going.

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The smell of his cologne was all around me, and I knew he was up trying to figure out what had happened and why. I knew that when I opened my eyes I had to act just as confused because I could bring myself to admit it to him that I loved him and that I had been waiting for last night for soo long. I just couldn't because I knew that he would never feel the same.

I picked myself up and rubbed the sleep out of my eyes and looked over to him. His eyes were wide and I could see regret and remorse inside them. It took me a moment to realize I had no clothes on and the duvet wasn't covering me, I quickly pulled it up and felt my face get warm.

" Did we..?" I asked even though I remembered exactly what had happened yesterday.

" Looks like it." He barley whispered..

"Shit.." We both said in unison. He started to ask random question, I followed his lead but I could help but let slip what was on my mind all night and all morning.

"Where does this leave us? What are we now Alfie?"

I watched him as he thought it over. I was dreading the answer he was going to say, I couldn't bear myself to hear the words 'just friends' again. I dreaded asking the question.

He opened his mouth ready to speak, but before he could say anything there was a loud knock on the door.

We both froze. What if our friends knew? What if they had aldready told everybody what had happened? I was relieved when I heard the unknown person shout, " ROOM SERVICE."

Alfie got up to tell the lady to come back later and walked back to me, his eyes soft.

"I'm sorry Zo, I took advantage of you. I was just so drunk, but that doesn't make it ok. I was supposed to protect you from this, not be the one to do it to you."

It broke my heart to see him this upset, but what was worse was that he thought I regretted it too.

" Alf, this was as much you as it was me. We were both drunk. It's ok, lets just forget about it alright?"

He nodded, slipped on his jeans and got his shirt from the chair it had been tossed on. I had no clue where my dress or shoes were as they were nowhere to be seen in the room. Oh well, I have more important things to think of than lost shoes.

"Zo,I'm going to go now before someone comes looking for me. See you later?" And with that he left the room.

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It was later that day and we were all meeting for lunch and then we would be checking out. I had slipped on some clothes and walked to the door. I turned around and looked at the room for the last time, all memories of that night I had to try and leave here. What was I kidding that would be impossible.

I met Liouse in the hallway.

"Chummy!" I heard her call and turned around to be crushed in one of her hugs.

"Chummy, I'm dying here." I could help but laugh she really knew how to make me happy.

" So Zo, serious right now. We're you and Alfie together last night?"

I froze how could she have known, " No, why are you asking?"

" Well, chummy I had a room right next to yours...and I could kind of tell there was a lot more going on that sleeping," she had turned a shade of red when she saw my terrified face, " not that I was listening or something...but anyway Marcus had said that you and Alfie had left together, and Alfie never came back into thier room untill this morning."

" Chummy, stop bieng crazy," I spluttered, " now let's go." I said quickly avoiding answering that question. The only thing that I could thing of was if Alfie had told Marcus he had crashed in my room because if he had then It would be oviously whatnhad happened between us that night. I had to tell him.

I ran into the hotel lobby, much to the confusion of Liouse, and straight towards Alfie. He was already taking to Marcus, and I could see Marcus's eyes widen as he saw me coming. He knew something, mabey Alfie had told him and he had put two and two together.

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Hey it's Bethany again,

I know I said I wouldn't update if know one commented and then I realized that only a few read this. Which is ok. I am just going to update now whenever I want because writing is fun for me and it helps me take my mind of things and relax. So now i will just be writing this for fun, when I feel like updating again I will, unless you comment telling me you want another update faster. ;)

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