The sneaking around was getting boring and I wanted everyone else to know we were together, but I don't know how to bring it up to Gareki.
He might break it off if he knew I felt like that.
"What's wrong?" Gareki asked, shifting to look more directly at me.
"Nothing" I sighed looking down at our entwined fingers.
"You sure?"
"Don't you think it's getting hard with all this sneaking around, why can't we come out and have a normal life as a couple" I blurted out.
His gaze hardened. "Yogi I told you that's not an option, drop it."
I didn't want to drop it.
"Fine, I'm going to bed" I stood. "All this late night sneaking around really makes me tired" I left him sitting on his bed as I made my way to my room.
As I lay in bed that night I couldn't help but be angry with Gareki. I mean, was dating me in public really that bad.
I guess I'm kind of embarrassing, with my spontaneous out bursts. He probably thinks he couldn't take me anywhere.
If he wasn't dating me then he would be more comfortable. I know what I have to do tomorrow.
I rolled onto my right side, unable to fall asleep. But I was tired of all of this.
The next morning we all went through our daily routines. I would wait until I could catch Gareki alone.
"Yogi?" I heard Gareki's voice behind me. "Tsukomo said you wanted to talk."
I nodded. "I don't think we should continue seeing each other if you won't come out with me."
I didn't wait for his response before I ran out, secret tears running down my face.
I didn't need Gareki to control my life, all I want is to be loved and to love. But I won't spend it in the closet with a man who's afraid of what's out there.
Even if I started to fall for him.
