Shante's pov
Three weeks later
So if you guys we're wondering I went with a guy named Javon . He went to my school and always used to try to sauce me but I never heard it. But one day I started to catch feelings because trust me he was fineee he was a dark chocolate color with some long dark curly hair he had a blow out and he is masculine omggg he was sexy asf but I didn't like him cause the word on the street is that he was unfaithful. So I stayed my distance but as soon as I started to develop feelings trust me I didn't care about what anybody said because he always seemed so sincere. And how would he cheat if he was always around me? But lately he's been so distant and I can't understand why but I don't care I just let him go do I feel insecure every now and then yea but I always have those lingering thoughts am I over him no never that at least not yet cause he put it down on me yea that tlc but I guess that's what the other girls thought too. So a few days ago I called eternity and told her to come over I told her about javon and she told me she thought I called her over to talk about Trey . So I was like what is wrong with Trey? She told me how she saw him getting suck up in olive garden. Oml I didn't know that he was cheating on her why did it happen all around the same time for us?. Okay but back to what I was saying about javon so it turned out he only had two girls and I was the one being played. All I was to him was a bet. Just a temporary money maker. All just a joke they was all talking and they was like he ugly so he of course as a arrogant little boy said he could get any girl he wanted so they was like get her. Whyyy, why did there hand have to land on me? So we started this well I started this long relationship that wasn't real it wasn't nothing to him. He didn't care all he wanted was to play me to display how weak I was without him near me. I should have listened but I was to naive. I thought I meant something to him. That he'll never cheat on me but it doesn't mean anything if you have to think that's something you should know. I should've stayed my distance standing clearly far away from being played but I fell into his trap, his trap of charm and now I'm heart broken I hold back my tears that would show all the words that we're unspoken . I wish my relationships would be just like the books where at first I was a bet but then I became special to him. Wishing and thinking that I would be the one. But the only thing I was to him was a game he played my heart like monopoly trying to win all the money in the game but that wasn't a reason to cause a fragile heart pain~ I wrote in my journal to contain all my unspoken words. I put my head down and let my tears drop one after another . Until someone taped me I wiped my eyes on the edge of my jacket before lifting my head. A boy I never noticed just gave me a hug and told me I could rely on him even if these other boys don't care I do I looked at him. He was a piece of art he was a nice light skin color with hazel eyes curly hair and a smile that made him look like he just took off his braces. I told him thank you my voice still shaky from crying I hugged him one last time. And thought for once somebody actually cares. It felt a little weird because it's been a month since javon broke up with me yet I still think about him. I'm glad that boy just made me think why wait and cry about a boy who all you mean to him is a bet? Why worry about someone who makes you feel insecure? So I just wonder if I see that hazel eyed boy again.
