Pressure

Scared....

A lady was doing the back of my dress up as i cofffed as all the wind was taken from me as it was so tight. my friends had grabbed me and propped me on a chair as the started prunning me and decorating me with variouse make-ups and nail varnishes. i felt a tight grip on my hair as someone started doing it it up nicely. 

"READY!" my friend giggled as they helped me up.

i didnt have a clue at what i looked like. the pulled a cloth of the long mirror and let me open my eyes. i stared in ore.. i never looked so pretty in my life. my wedding dress was amazing the blue tinting to it at the bottom that  flaired up look great and it fitted perfectally. my make-up matched my wedding dress as it was different shades of blue to go with my eyes. my nails were so decratuve woth the white background and the beautiful blue swirls on. then my hair..... it was wonderful.... it was curled and pined up with a hair pin that was covered in blue crystals and that reflected blue dots around the room. it was perfect. everything i ever wanted. i couldnt believe i was acctually getting married to my one true love, Harry Styles. 

**~**~**~*an hour later*~**~**~**

i could hear the music floating around the church as i stood outside ready to walk down the ailse. 

"i cant do this." i whispered to my friend. i was nervouse. butterflies hatched in my stomach ; my body started to shake.

"Nina, you can. you are beautiful and caring and loving all harry ever wanted and he loves you take a deap breath and dont worry about a thing!" she reassured me.

the doors opened and i could see hundreds of faces staring at me. slowly and shakily i steppedd forward intime with the music. i didnt dare look forwards i was terrified incase something went wrong. it felt like ages before i reached Harry. i felt a warm hand slide into mine. my breathing got louder and louder, suddenly i could hear the vicor stop speaking 

"I do!" Harry whispered in the silence. it was now my turn to say 'i do'. i couldnt i was so scared and worried my body froze. my head filled with all the comments peiple say to me 'your not good enough for him' 'heyy slut' 'you dont deserve him' ' go die in a hole hes mine' 'harry needs a real person to love him. not you!' the voices took over in my head. i couldnt do this i wasnt worth him. harry was to kind for me - how could i have a chance. i felt a tear roll down my face. more and more cold chilling tears hurt my cheeks, they stung as they rolled down. i just couldnt take the pressure anymore.

"Harry.....I-I... I cant! I-I..Im too s-scared!" i stuttered. i could look up i just ran. i pushedd through the doors and ran and ran and ran. i didnt look back i couldnt look back. sobbs cme out of me tears streamed down my face black streaks rolled down my cheeks as the maskara ran. 

"NINA! STOP PLEASE DONT GO!.......I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL.. I CAT STAND TO LET YOU GO ID RATHER DIE." Harry cried ad shouted to me i could hear his sobbs and crys of pain. 

*******{i was litterally crying while writing this}**********

I could hear his feet stumbling behind me trying not to give up. i knew he was chasing me but i was scared and nervouse and terrified. i fell down by a tree and curled up in its roots that poked up over the ground. Harrys pace was slowing and they came closer to me. a warm hand wrappeed around my waist and thats all i remember as i cried myself to sleep...