Pressure

this cant be real

i looked through every text harry sent me. i cried at every one just from the site of his messages and how shaky his hands must of been as the leetters reppeted themself a lot. i clicked replie on the last message he sent me about 5 minutes ago. 

me: Harry i miss you im sorry for leaving im lost i need help i dont know where i am!

Harry:i miss you soo much why did u run away i wanted to make u happy! :'( ill find you dont worry xxx

me: i im soo sorry....

harry: im worried...

me: so am i. i need you i never ment to leave!

harry:no nina this is seriouse i was emptying the bin as its filled with tissues and the pregnancy test is it supose to be red?? :O

me:no unless.......OMG

harry: ill find you as fast as i can i love you i cant live without you dont leave again please ill halp you... and what is she dies...

i knew he was talking about the baby i was suposidly carrying. i was more than scared i was horrified incase i have killed the child inside me. i would be a murderer! i had a small piece of adreniline that kicked into my body knowing i had to save the child i couldnt let it die i would die in pain of knowing i killed our child and left harry! and i couldnt cope knowing that.

i found a large long stick on the other side on the tree and i shuffled towads it and held it tightly like it was my last hope.....wait this was my last hope! i grabed the tree and halled myself up and than tugged at a piece of fabric that was hanging off my dress and shakily tighed it round the stick end and shoved it under my armpit for support. i slowly managed to move forwards ince by inch and soon i was a few meters from the tree. i knew it would take ages to find a village bt i tried. 

30 minutes later i reached a path and a line of trees along it. i colapsed down onto the side of the tree and layed sprawled on the ground as my lipm body slumped down from the tree and backwards. 

to my luck a car zoomed past and a little child started banging on the window pointing aat me. the car suddenly stopped a few meters infrount and a lady came out. she ran to me and shouted for the husband. it was a great relife when he lifted me up and layed me in the back sets of the car. my mind buzzed and tears fell down my cheaks as they turned the radio on aand ofcouse they had to play One Direction. and herd them sing but it just didnt sound right there was pain in their voices and they must be live no tape sounds like this they stopped singing and i herd harrys voice half crying

"Nina where are you please come back where are you i cant ifnd you!?!" i cried louder and the car stopped as harrys cries left and the radio stopped.

"darling whats wrong are you in pain?" the lady asked after she opened the side door. i could hardly see and i had a little energyy left inside me so speak.

"Harry....i need Harry.. im Nina i left him scared at the alter and ran i found coustiouse ness and texted him to find me ass i was scared so he has been but im lost to him.....i want to find him!" i cried. the women had a heart attck and sat on the edge of the seat hushind me and stroking my messy hair.

"he will find you. but  first we need the doctor!" she said in a stern but calming voice. i nodded and slowly drifted asleep.

i felt a sharp shaking on my arm. i opened my eyes as some people in green carried me out of the car and into an ambulance. they put a mask thing on my face and i fell asleep but i felt a stabbing pain in my wrist

**~**~***~**~sorry if this is a bit gross im writghing it like it was when i was rushed to hospital once and i nearly died~**~***~**~*~*~**~**~**

my droopy eyes opened slightly ass i peered thouh my eyelids to see the woman by my side holding my hand and hushing

"it will be okay harry will find you." i calmed down from hearing her angelic voice.

when i was in the hospital i had finally woken up and my body winned in pain and soreness. the doctor walked in with a clipbord and walked to me.

"hello Nina. i am your doctor Dr Locket i shall be looking after you. It seems youve been having trouble with fear recently and you have broken a leg and your arm! but on the bright side congratulations you are pregnant!" she cried cheerfully. she smiled lots and shook my non broken arm. 

"do you need any records?" i said wonderingly as im not sure how hospitals work.

"um... yess if you can remember!" she said not seriousely. i wonder what she ment when she said 'if i can remember'

"im Nina Grace Slade (Styles) i was born March 19th 1996 and i was born in the JR and im engaged to Harry Edward Styles and i thats why in nearly a styles as i left him at the alter  but i wasnt read." i blabbered it was so nice to talk proppally. she took notes and filled out a form.

"and this Harry Edward Styles.. is he THEE Harry edword styles?" she checked. i noddedwith a tear rolling down my cheak as all the memorise of leaving him re entered my mind and hearing his voice crying on the radio.