Aware

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•BRAD•

When we arrived at Abbotsford, I was feeling a little bit under the weather. I was literally shivering from the cold and Tristan had to put his arms around me to keep me warm- another gay move indeed.

I was taken aback by the fans who were there to welcome us into the country. I didn't expect hundreds of them to be here welcoming us despite of the weather.

Compared to yesterday, my mind's clearer right now and I mostly have been able to cope up with the pain inside of me. I keep on thinking that this is what's supposed to happen. She isn't for me and I'm not for her.

Joe didn't left me with my thoughts as he tapped my shoulder and said, "Compose yourself, B. I've been putting up my arse out there for you. Don't mess it up this time."

I waved at the fans and they all screamed back saying how much they love the band. And I stood in front of the band and Joe as I shouted back to each and every one of them.

"I love you too!" I smiled and tried my very best to erase Anna's face from my mind. It seems to be working, for now.

We headed to the van and went straight to the hotel. The show's not up till 6pm and the line up was the same as Los Angeles so we decided to chill out at the hotel.

Joe went ahead to the venue to take care of things such as our sound system and other things he's hired to do.

Whilst we were playing video games, My phone vibrated in my pocket. Who could be calling me while I'm on tour? In the back of mind, I'm wishing it was Anna. She still has my number and she still hasn't replied to the voicemail that I left her.

When I looked at my phone, I'm a little bit disappointed that it was Nat. I still feel a little guilty cause I lied to her about Jesse so she'll come home to London and not witness how I wreck myself over a heartbreak.

I cleared my throat as she said, "Hey little brother. How's Canada?"

"Hey, Natty! I'm a little sick as of the moment but Canada's great. The fans went to the airport to greet us." I said feeling a little better talking to her.

"That's good!"

"Hey. I'm sorry about lying to you about Jesse. I hope you aren't mad."

There was silence on the phone.

Then she said, "It's okay Bradley. I'm just worried about you. Why do you have to send me home like that? We can talk about it you know."

I felt my insides open up to Nat about Anna but then Joe arrived and was asking us to go to the venue to have a little sound check. Regardless of whether it's the same line up or not.

The show was amazing as always. The fans were overwhelming and unbelievable. But I couldn't get why despite of each one of them admiring me, why can't I get Anna to admire me back?

Shit. Anna again.

I've already told you to forget about her, Brad. I told myself.

Around 9 in the evening, Joe invited us to go to this club in Abbotsford called Foundation Bar. The guys looked like they could use a drink and maybe that's what I need to clear up my mind so we agreed to go.

The club was an expensive club where we didn't even need to get in line to go in. We just had to say the band's name and the bouncer removed the pole and let us walk right in.

The club was filled with pretty rich people. A lot of them kept ordering different-colored drinks and don't have the plan to touch them. What a waste of money.