Gone || ✔

XXXV

I was in my first year through middle school and I noticed Jamison helping me out and standing up for me, which was really sweet. We got closer and closer when we grew up, which was pretty cool. He joined our group and Meri would always give me the are-you-two-dating-yet look, and to which I would respond by rolling my eyes.

Throughout the school year, I saw this boy. His name was Jason. In class, I would catch him staring at me, and I got a spark of hope that he liked me back, which he did. He asked me out, and I was so excited because //.1 I was in sixth grade and it was cool to have a boyfriend. //.2 He was my first boyfriend ever. //.3 He was my crush and usually people I liked did not like me back. //.4 Meri didn't hook us up. 

So we dated for about a year and I noticed that me and Jamison sort of drifted apart. I would catch him staring sadly at us and he would look away. He soon avoided eye contact with us and I was hurt. I thought I had to add another person on my People Who Hate Me List, but there was no more room. I knew he was jealous, but I didn't want him to be. 

I started to notice everybody giving me and Jason dirty looks in the hallway. I found out that someone started to spread rumors about us. To this day, I never knew who did it. Whoever it was, they really wanted to tear me down. He eventually broke up with me but I don't know why either. Everyone seemed to be hiding things from me and I felt like I was on the outside looking in. It ruined my reputation and everyday I wished I was dead. Jamison noticed my behavior change and he stayed kind of far. We started to talk, but he seemed kind of distant.

In eighth grade, we got really close again. Meri, Blaine, and Alexx were acting really weird but I brushed it off. I wish I never did. When ninth grade came, I wanted to drop out. Mom certainly said no and asked me why. She called me somethings that I know she never meant, except for mistake. Maybe she didn't mean it, but it was true. I eventually stopped going to school and the school called, asked why I was missing. Mom told them some excuse. I still talked to Jamison and everyone else, but it wasn't the same. We hung out whenever we could. 

And then now it brings us back to the beginning of the story, 

It was a chilling October night, the winds carrying the red, orange, brown and yellow leaves throughout the sky. Clouds blocking the moon and its beautiful light. Headlights of cars ruining my obsession with the calmness of the night, and also a phone call from Alexx. She knows I absolutely hate phone calls with a very big amount of passion. I ignore the stupid, annoying ring tone and stare back out the window.  

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hey guys! ashley here. i hope you really enjoyed this story. there will be more from me, don't worry. :p 

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~ashley😈