Look In to my eyes

This isn't a masquerade

All i am is what you really see

nope not at all

I write poetry

but i am

not the next shakespeare

i'm not afraid to show who i am

but i am terrified of what you will say

say C'est la vie

say life is hard

it often leaves too many scars

but really i am afraid

of ridicule and judgement

it comes when i say a word

i just want to be heard

when i wake up

thinking i'm all sorts of fucked up

i never say the right words

because the right might be the wrong always

people say nice things but i don't know

if they mean the best or they are just words intended to make more bullet holes in me

i'm not just who you see there is way more than that to me

my mind is a complete mess

so i must confess

my life is full of chaos stress and anxiousness

i try to have a place in this world

lies of society

beauty is a standard everyone has to meet

apparently there is only a girl or a boy

as if this is a box

we are attempting to change

some for the better

mostly for the worst

we have reasons for smiling

i smile because

it might just save a life

this world isn't that pretty of a place

human existence has a purpose

i question mine and maybe some of yours

i am my self

i rather not live in misery

questioning all this causality

seriously would you get to know the real me

i'm not this shell casing

i'm way more than what you see

So sorry

I'M showing the real me

this isn't a masquerade