Look In to my eyes

Things happen,right?

Playing pretend 

It's all we've done

All is fun 

All is happy 

but is it really

As we grow up

We grow out of phases 

Once we're best friends 

A boy and a girl 

No longer acceptable 

They were happy when they were young 

But now

Now they are sad and alone

November longer happy no longer feeling like superman

Thinking nobody cares 

When they were small he was her king 

She was is queen

Not a care in the world so very happy

Now they care about looks 

So distant

Yet so close 

Never really talk 

What happened to best friends forever and ever

Pretend was no longer

Acceptable 

No longer an option 

The only pretend is pretending to be 

Happy

Pretending not to be continous of scars Of weight

Pretending to be Okay

When really drowning in sadness fear anxiousness and self hate

Finding each other again 

A glimmer of shining hope shows through 

Then is lost learning the truth

It has been nine years 

Just finding who your true friends are 

With this help 

She labeled self non-binary 

He said with their help I like all genders 

Just their heart 

Becoming friends again made him start recovering from self harm

But still struggling with depression and anxiety 

+much more

They started recovery with help from anorexia 

But is still struggling with the same

But together got better

In time

Pretend worked for a while 

They "weren't" hungry

He "wasn't" in pain

Together they "weren't" sad

Fearfull theyou fucked everything up

Everyone surrounding thought they were okay

But until alone they never showed any emotions 

Without anyone asking

Couldn't bring their self to eat it was too hard 

If they do 

Starting to feel guilty 

So throw it up 

And don't eat for days

For him trying not to be so fucking depressed 

Like a never ending cycle always coming back harder than a concrete wall

Some nights crying to go to sleep

Knowing one day they will have a reason besides the memories 

To see each other again and ask 

"Are you okay,tell me the truth"

Knowing a lie was coming otherwise 

"No, not even close"

"Are you"

"No"

Both rolling up their sleeves a tear rolled down their cheeks

"How long"

They said "5 years" he said " 4 years"

They asked with tears falling "Why" 

"I hate my self. I hate this world the people in it are ass holes.I'm a waste of space . I don't want to live any more,im scared to take my life and hurt every body. I am just a fuck up of society." 

 He asks them 

"I'm anorexic that's why I'm so skinny.I'm pathetic I'm guessing you hate me,right."

"No not at all I will help you recover.I promise you don't have to pretend to be okay any more with me.it's going to be okay"

*hugs*

We are strong enough to be done with this

Growing up is hard 

It sucks 

Sad and broken 

Helping each other 

Coming out and transitioning as non-binary 

Picking up each other's pieces

Putting them back together

Battle scars fading 

Getting healthier

After forever they are together again