Love At First Sight - An Austin Mahone Fanfic

Love At First Sight- Chapter 3

After I make sure they're in their room, I sit back down on the couch.

"So..? why can't you? If you don't like me just say no. You don't have to make up an excuse.." Austin says. His voice sounds sad, and some what tired. "Listen Austin.. I really do wanna go, trust me. I can't. I have a good reason. I don't know if you want to know or not. But if you do I'll tell you." I have a serious tone of voice now. "Please tell me.." he says. He doesn't believe I have a reason. "Okay.. but I'm going to warn you, I might cry." They all give each other a strange look and I start. "When I was 6, my dad started to beat me," I begin. You can feel a cold feeling in the room. "after a couple months of beatings, I was diagnosed with depression. I still have it. 4 years after, I started to self harm. I cut my wrists, thighs, stomach, and anywhere else" Everyones face goes white. I pull up my sleeves and show them. All of them gasp. I have tears in my eyes. "I have too many scars.. from my fathers beatings, my self harm, and I have very deep ones from when I tried to commit suicide." Austin just looks at me in shock. "I understand if you don't like me anymore," I look out the big bay window, "no one really does.." it goes silent for a couple minutes. "Do your parents know?" Michele says breaking the silence. "Uhm.. They did.." I manage to choke out. I don't like talking about my parents death. "What do you mean they did?" She asks. "Both my parents are dead," I say "My mom committed suicide in front of me when i was 14. She hung herself.." and here come the water works.. 

I start bawling my eyes out. Austin comes over and hugs me. I hug him back. We sit there for a good 5 minutes. He's rubbing my back, its very comforting. I finally let go. "..And my dad.. He died from a car crash when he was drunk driving. I was sad that day but at the same time i was relieved I wouldn't get a beaten from him again." I say in between tears. "You still have bruises and stuff?" Austin asks me. "Yeah.." I say as I stand up and show everyone my stomach which was covered in bruises and cuts. "But why.. why do you hurt yourself like that. Weren't you hurt enough? You're so beautiful. I can't believe you actually hurt yourself." Austin tells me. I look at him and smile, "Thank you Austin. But I was always put down by my father. He ruined my life and messed me up. I'm not beautiful. I hurt myself because I have so much anger and I can't let it out any other way. Other than my singing. But I only sing to Brooklyn because she's young. My father always told me my voice was horrible. So I only sing to someone who can't and won't judge me."  

"You're really strong, Amanda." Michele says. "Its only because of my sisters. Like I said earlier, if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be here. Before my mom hung herself, she told me that I have to stay for my little sisters, or they wouldn't have anyone. I always took care of them. My mom was diagnosed with depression too. She hung herself because she couldn't watch my father beat me anymore. She couldn't live seeing and knowing he does that to me. She also told me to stay because I'm a responsible, and beautiful young lady. And she told me  she knows I can take care of my sisters better than she could." My eyes fill with tears again. 

"I understand why you can't. It's fine. Maybe we can go get ice ream or go out to eat sometime?" Austin says after I stop crying. "I'd love that" I say and smile at him. Michele seems happy. 

That night after I put Brooklyn, Kiley, and Breanna to bed, I sit on the couch with everyone. We were watching TV and I fell asleep. 

The next day I woke up and i was in my bed. I woke up because there was a knock at my door. When I open my eyes I see that Brooklyn is awake and smiling. I give her a kiss on her nose a go get the door. I was expecting it to be my uncle or one of my sisters. It was Austin. He held a plate with bacon, french toast, and sausages on it. I look at it, then up at him. "Good morning beautiful," he says with a smile. "I made you breakfast!" he said very excited and happy. It was cute. "Thank you," I say and give him a light kiss on the cheek, he turns red. "i'll be out in a minute to eat i just have to grab Brooklyn." I say and he smiles and walks off to the dining room.