Stranger

Job?

It was weird. Too weird. It was like I was in a dream. One I wished for almost everyday. I wish it would happen too much. It was weird to have it happen. Though, I know they are going to attack hard. Harder and worse than ever. They're going to bring me to where they want me. They're going to make me go lower and deeper than I already am. They know it and that's their plan.

Drew and Shelby haven't messed with me for the whole week.

And it's Friday!

I walked into school Tuesday thinking something bad was soon to happen, but nothing. Nothing happened! They left me alone. It was a little too suspicious and weird. They even seen me in the hall and not a single thing had happened. To say I was scared was an understatement. They were waiting, waiting for the moment to attack. Like a lion soon to catch a gazelle that was minding its own business. Not thinking it was going to be attacked and killed. Though, I wouldn't die but it was much worse.

I would suffer, suffer from the pain and agony I was soon to take in.

They would make me think they were done messing and playing with my feelings but they'd only take that to their advantage. They are good at playing mind games and that's all they need to win in this game. They know it, too. But the thing is, they don't know I can play their little game. I observe them from afar and understand how they work. I know what they do and I can play back just as hard. I will fight back just has I have been.

My father has been acting strange as well. He has been coming home but not in the mood he usually was in. He would come home late, nothing odd there, but he would come home and not eat. I would ask if he was hungry but he would say a simple 'No' and go to bed. Not pushing the conversation any further, I would go to bed as well. I would ask every night but I got the same answer, 'no'. I was starting to worry. He was getting thinner, though, he wasn't a big man. He was still thinning out and he was starting to look sick. Deep inside I knew what he was doing but I didn't want to believe. I pushed the thought totally away. I could not being doing it! He only drank. Nothing else. 'He's fine! Stop worrying so much. He's a grown man, Megan. You should not be looking after him like a mother,' my conscious told me every time I thought about him. He was a grown man but he was sick and he needed help. Something bad was soon to happen to him. I can feel it and its going to be too late. Thinking that, I told myself I was going to have a talk with him. I need to work this out. I could not lose the one parent I have left.

I didn't bother making my father breakfast when I woke up because it would only go to waste. He wouldn't even eat breakfast. He said his job has been bringing food in the mornings and he would eat then. Thinking I believed it, he went on with his day but little did he know, I knew he wasn't eating. Something was wrong and I needed to find out. He was not acting himself and he would stay as far from me than usual. He wouldn't even beat on me, not that I was complaining, but something was terribly wrong and my made up ideas made no sense. I couldn't come up with a reasonable explanation for his actions, which only added on to my worrying.

Not worrying about a shower, I slowly walk to school thinking of everything that has been going on lately. Sure has been a weird week, to say the least. First, my bullies leave me be and understand that I will no longer back down. I will do me and no one is in my way. So I thought. Secondly, my abusive father has been acting strange and distance. He's been out there lately and I was worried. I knew something bad was just soon to come up and take over. It might seem like everything's going good and I should be happy but to be honest, I'm only stressing more than I ever have.

The odd thing of it is, no one has been messing with me. It's like they only fuck with me when Drew and Shelby do. It felt surreal because this never happens. I feel invisible, like no knows I'm here anymore. I can't explain even put it into words.