rjlupin: How the hell do you manage to date me knowing what I am?
rjlupin: I become a complete monster. An absolute ruthless, careless killer. One of these moons I'm going to accidentally hurt you and I just can't handle that thought.
padfoot_: moony, that isn't your fault
padfoot_: you don't mean to hurt anybody, and you definitely don't deserve the hurt that you experience from this
rjlupin: I do deserve it, Sirius. What I am is horrible, disgusting. I deserve my bones breaking and tearing my skin apart and throwing myself against things. It's punishment for being a werewolf.
padfoot_: cut that bullshit remus. it breaks my heart to feel you shudder and sob against me in your final moments of shifting. it hurts me to know how much pain and conflict this has caused you, it hurts me even more to know what you genuinely believe you deserve it. you arent vicious or evil or disgusting, you're a messy haired goofball who wears ridiculously huge sweaters. im so madly in love with you and every side of you. the only person you're harming is yourself. you've done nothing to deserve the shit you have to go through.
[first time Sirius said he loved Remus maybe?? Idk]
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Marauders Messaging
FanfictionSarah (_justcheeky_) inspired this + I like the marauders a lot and they'd have weird af messaging conversations, and then this trash garbage was born. Basically this is a wizard version of her Bottle Cap Chats thing. Hence "lilylover.69"
