Imposiabilities

Chapter 5

It's been two weeks since I found out about my nothingness. One week since I found I have bones growing from my shoulder blades. I'm still in pain but not as bad.

Today I get to began school again. I haven't seen my peers from school in almost a month. I would be happy to go back to school, and see my friends, but I don't have many.

Braxton and Elizabeth are my only friends, if you can even call them that. I don't fit in any ware and I'm fine with that, I make my own way.

The few things I'm known for at school are choir and dance, but not really. I'm no one.

If I had friends, and a life, I would probably be more perturb about my nothingness, but I don't. I'm alone.

"Your back, where were you? Are you okay?" Eli asks me as soon as she sees me in the hall. I explain to her what happened, and she looks at me like I just died, and she doesn't know who I am anymore.

I walk to class alone. I just want to be alone. I sit down in my seat and cogitate about what life was like before all of this.

The late bell rings, and atendance is taken. "Welcome back to school, Tara. Are you okay, now?" Mrs. Foes asks concerned. "Yes," I reply.

No. I'm not okay, I'm dying.

She starts talking to the class about whatever it is we are learning now in math.

Quadratic functions. Fun.

"Who remembers......." Mrs. Foes asks, and some girl answers her question. I'm not paying attention to her.

I sit there and stare out the window. The only thing I'm able to focus on the nothingness in me, that isn't me.

I will live, I will be fine. I will get answers, and I will be happy. This nothingness isn't me, it's only a part of me. I am not nothing.

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Class ends and I walk to my next class with Braxton. We have choir together. Braxton can't sing, but that doesn't mean he won't try. He is one of those people that thinks they can do anything, and for the most part can, but they can't. We weren't made to do everything.

"What did you learn in math, with Mrs. Foes?"

Another thing about braxton, is he belives everything he hears.

People have said since the first week of school, that Mrs. Foes is the worst teacher on campus. But that's not true, her class is easy, and she teaches so you know how to do it later on, and so you won't forget.

"Nothing really, I wasn't listening. Just stared out the window," I reply finally just as we are walking through the door to the choir room.

"Are you okay, Tara? You seem a bit out of it," Braxton asks me because I zoned out again. "Yeah, I'm fine, just thinking."

I shouldn't have said that, now he will be asking about what I was thinking.

"About what?" He asks concerned

I was right, I always am.

"Nothing," I reply iritated.

"Okay I can take a hint, I'll back off. Okay?" "Okay."

Finally.