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Chapter 4

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Ed :
I did say yes to take her along. Would never have if I was in my correct senses and she wouldn't have been throwing a tantrum in the middle of the road. I think she has been taken care of as a little princess in her home, I mean no offence all those daddy's little princess type girls make me rip my hair out. I have started to grow some negative feelings towards Jess, but the fact that she is tired of being daddy's little princess is a plus point. I left my car at the club yesterday as she didn't know where she wanted to go and I had nothing to do. We both have a very similar background if you compare but we are not the same. You see she probably is one of those people who think of the world to be pretty and beautiful but I stand as a contrast. I have seen death take place, so many times. I have seen the actual world. I have been doing this travelling thing from the past 2 months, I occasionally call dad from a telephone booth to transfer money to my bank account. He is honestly disappointed in me. He wanted me to join his business and I fled from there. I didn't have any close friends, just acquaintances so there wasn't much of an emotional bond over there, and I kind of grew hatred towards the rotten town after the accident. "You okay?", She places her hands over my shoulder, even though she is quite shorter than me she still manages. "Nothing, was wondering how I am going to deal with you being in the same car as me", I push her hand off my shoulder and give her a fake smile. She laughs, "Oh Ed, my sweet Eddie, I know how sexy and hot I'm, but I am sure you can control yourself". I roll my eyes and stick my tongue out. I spot Denny, my vehicle by the street and I point at it, "there it is". And she stops in here tracks, "Are you serious?", "As serious as you were when you asked me to search for your rucksack and tampons and bloody hell, that pink purse". She groans, "A fucking truck which looks as if it was made during the world war II, you have to be kidding", I pretend to be offended, "Hey, watch your mouth, its not a fucking truck, his name is Denny! My brother's exquisite transport". She gives me a look and throws her stuff into the back of the truck. "You have a brother?", her crystal clear blue eyes search my face. "Rather not talk about it", I murmur. I haven't talked about him since ages, I don't why I mentioned him to her, its obviously none of her concern. I add another point in my check list, 'never talk about brother'. I am not sure if the check list is of any use or not because I just went against it by agreeing to take her along but anyways. I know she wanted to say something, question something but she doesn't and I am grateful for that. "Wow doesn't this car just smell like a billion rats died in here, we are so going to Target for purchasing air fresheners, look at the condition of it, when was the last time you had this gone for servicing", and their daddy's little princess complains. And I don't reply, I know its the truth, but I don't want to send Denny for servicing, I never have since he left. I am lost in thoughts and she promptly goes in and sits down on the driver's seat and I know what this is leading to. "No Sandra get your ass back here at place it in this seat", I command her as if I am her mother and for a moment for all weird reasons I wonder how her mother looks like, and if she was as pretty as her, and if she was searching for her. "I wanna driveeeeeee" she honks the horn and I slap my hand over my forehead. "I regret my decision already, do you even have a licence?".And she waves one and starts to ramble, "Got it when I was 16, haven't drove anywhere before though like without my dad assisting me but I am sure I can do it, plus you need to sleep, I slept for 4 hours, you didn't, and you need beauty sleep, oh boy you do, I wouldn't want your so beautiful face to be covered with dark circles. Please let me drive and please sleep?", she finishes and I caught on to just four words from the entire ramble, "my so beautiful face?". She turns red and fidgets, "ofcourse you heard only that I guess, I was being nice, please let me driveeeee". I could feel heat rise up in my cheeks and I can't explain how adorable this girl is. She makes me feel stuff I shouldn't feel. I watch as she licks her lower lip to wet it as it was probably dry. I am so trying so hard right now to stop myself from kissing her. I know its impossible for any serious feelings to occur in just one night, and I cannot let lust guide my way. I guess I should sleep. I don't say anything and sit down next to her and she does a victory dance. And this is  the very first time I have allowed anyone to touch Denny.

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