Back to Me

Believe, or not to Believe?

One week later

I was sitting in my red chair by the window studying when I heard a knock on my door.

"Come in." I mumbled not really in the mood to talk.

"Spencer, he's here." My mom told me as I heard her walk in.

I didn't need to ask who she meant when she said 'he.' Toby had come over twice, now three times, to try and talk to me. But I always ignored his visits and calls. Toby and I were the only ones that knew what happened. And Hanna and Jason knew a few vague details.

"I have nothing to say to him."

"Well, he has something to say to you." She stated. "I don't know what happened between you two. But don't give up so easily, every couple has arguments its part of the relationship."

"I'm not giving up, but we didn't just argue. What he said was..." I stopped so that I didn't end up crying in front of her. "He's not going to stop so tell him to come on up. I want to get this over with."

"Okay, I'll send him up. But, Spencer, it may hurt, but you should listen to him." She advised me and then I heard her leave the room.

I could hear Toby practically run up the stairs to my room and I prepared myself for another argument.

"Hello, Toby," I sighed as I closed my book and set it on the window sill.

"Hi, Spencer," He said and I could hear a little bit of nervousness and I could feel a bit of awkwardness as well.

"I don't want to hear another apology. So save your breath if that's why you're here." I told him right out.

"I know you don't want to hear another apology. I'm here for another reason. I'm here because of Hanna."

"Hanna? What does she have to do with this? Is she okay?" I asked completely not expecting him to mention her.

"Hanna's fine." He assured me and then got back on topic. "The day after...I said what I did, Hanna came over. She reminded me of our first double date. You remember?"

"Of course, anything involving Hanna is kind of hard to forget. Plus, I did get locked in the bathroom that made it really memorable." I answered with heavy sarcasm on the last part.

"Hanna said she was there to keep her promise. She didn't follow through on the second part though." He continued and I couldn't stop the grin at the mention of 'the second part'. "But she did call me out for hurting you. Since Hanna kept her promise, I'm going to keep mine."

"Toby, you can't keep that promise that you already broke."

"I know, I broke the promise not to hurt you and I threw it out the window. But I'm not talking about that promise. I'm talking about the one I made when I said Jenna would never break us up."

"Jenna didn't cause this rift between us, Toby. You did!"

I was angry with him for the obvious reason. But also because I couldn't believe he would try and pin the blame on someone else.

"And didn't you tell me you didn't care that I never told you about Jenna's warning?" I added.

"I screwed up, I know. But I told you the truth when I said I didn't care about that. And I was also telling you the truth when I said I wasn't angry I you. I was angry at Jenna but I took it out on you. I know you don't want another apology. But I was wrong to do that and I am sorry."

"So what? You admit that you're wrong and I'm supposed to forgive you?"

"No, I don't expect you to forgive me now. And I wouldn't blame you if you never did. All I want is the chance to explain. Let me do that then I'll leave you alone if that's what you want."