Nothing | E.D

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That's Jada ^

LOOSER! No one wants you here. Just go away Jada. You don't mean anything to anyone here so why don't you just do us all favor and leave because you're a complete Nothing. And that's what you mean to everyone..nothing.

Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.

Those words taunted me as they replayed in my head over and over again. But the one that left the most pain was the word nothing. A name that I am constantly accused of being. I hated being called nothing. I despised being called nothing. But I couldn't deny that every breathing moment of my life I felt like a complete and utter nothing.
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I took one look in my mirror and cringed as I saw my myself. "You're a nothing and a nobody." I told my reflection as I loathed my appearance.

I left my bedroom as I closed the door behind me. I ran downstairs to see both my parents had left the house for work.

I had 2 choices I could take the bus or walk. If I walked there is a possibility of getting beaten up. If I take the bus I know I'll get picked on. I contemplated for a moment but then decided it was best to take my chances with the bus.

I skipped breakfast as usual grabbed my backpack and made my way to the bus stop. There waiting for me was Amberlynn Jones and her sister Serena Jones. My very own bullies that for some odd reason find joy in my pain.

I kept my head down hoping they would ignore my presence. After all I am nothing.

"Well well well look who it is" said Amber. "Keep your head down and your mouth shut." I told myself while I squeezed the straps of my backpack. "Where Amber I don't see anything" Serena said pretending as if I wasn't there.

"Look it's right here" Amber said pointing to me while playing her little game. "Oh! That thing right there" she went on "don't touch it you might get rabies. What is it?" Serena continued as I stood there trying to tune out each painful word.

"Don't worry Rena it's probably nothing." Amber taunted. I should have walked I thought.

I waited until everyone entered the bus and went last as always. I made my way in greeting the bus driver with a fake smile. One thing I'm great at for sure is putting on a fake smile and hiding my misery.

She greeted me back with a friendly wave as I walked off.

I made my way down the isle to get to back of the bus. I made sure that I avoided each leg that stuck out trying trip me. How mature.

I finally made my way to back of the bus and sat down at a window seat. I sighed taking my earphones out of the front pocket of my backpack and brought out my phone.

I stuck the end of my earphones in the hole of my phone. I then put the two buds in my ears. I set my music on shuffle Good for you by: Selena Gomez played first.

I mouthed the lyrics as they blasted through my ears.

"Let me show you how proud I am to be yours. Leave this dress a mess on the floor. And still look good for you, good for you"

I drifted away from the world as I listed to Selena Gomez's soothing tone.

As the next song was about to play I see a tall muscular looking figure sit down next to me.

I shifted away from him trying to create as much space as possible between the two of us. He payed no attention to my gesture instead he played around with his phone.

I attempted to ignore his presence but soon found it was impossible. My eyes were drawn to angelic yet devilish face. His eyes were hazel and I swear he had the power to hypnotise people with those eyes if he wanted to. My eyes roamed to his perfectly defined jawline as I held my self back from touching it. My eyes soon found their way to his lips. So perfect, plump, and kissable.

He turned his head and caught my staring. I blushed a bright shade of red and quickly turned away from his breathtaking face. He snickered as I sat there feeling foolish and embarrassed as ever.

"My name is Ethan, Ethan Dolan" he said holding his hand out gesturing for me to shake it.

I hesitate but slowly bring my hand to his. "I'm Jada, Jada Carson"

He takes my hand, small and delicate compared to his own and gives it a firm shake.

"What's it like at East High?" Ethan asked.

"He must be new" I tell myself

"Miserable and depressing" I reply turning off my music.

"And why is that?" He asks clearly trying to keep the conversation going.

"Well when you're constantly being reminded that nobody cares or loves you and that everyone wants to see you crying and alone, it's miserable and depressing." I tell him bluntly, not caring what kind of impression I gave him of myself.

He didn't reply but instead gave a look of sympathy.
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The rest of the bus ride was short yet uncomfortable.

The bus stopped at East high and I let out a sigh knowing the misery that lay ahead of me.

"Ladies first" Ethan uttered politely. "Thanks" I said lugging my backpack on my shoulder and making my way off the bus.

I ignore the sneer remarks as I got off the bus and enter the school.

I walk into the hallway I hold my head down try to tune out all the crude insults.

"Oops I didn't see you there!" Serena said as she "accidentally" bumps into me, nearly knocking me over.

I shrug off the humiliation and make my way to the library, since I have about 20 minutes first period starts.

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