My Skin Is My Sin

Tears Of A Youth

Cut me out,tear me apart,open up my skin and reveal my flesh to the world, You will see i bleed just like you,i have the same blood colour which is red. I feel the pain you feel and i share the tears you share. You may see my tears more than i see them but i feel the touches down my cheeks more than you feel them. You may have the biggest heart ever, but mine is the deepest. People walk in and out but there is still enough place for more. Many are those who turn their backs on me, they run away from me in times of trouble. They only appear to me when they need help. But i do not regret having them in my life,because i feel i am the most special person in their life.That is why they always turn to me when no one looks at them. I have felt pain,i have been walked on,i have been killed and arise physically and spiritually and most of all emotional. shame and pain,lost and failure,troubles and trails,problems and tribulations,agony and sorrow,sickness and madness,tears and blood,fake friends and loved ones. What havent i seen?? They say those you meet on your way up,are the same people you will meet on your way down. So why hate on me? why try to bring me down? why spit on my face? why paint me black whiles am already black? We all came from one person..A woman but with different backgrounds doesnt mean i am not one of you. We got our dreams and goals,talents and skills,so why hate on mine? why destroy and put shame all over me? You can help me achieve but why do you sit and watch me suffer? I guess you will asking yourself the same question. Too many questions to ask but few answers for them..Why tell me how ugly i am whiles i am just like you?
Life is not always about what we thought about when we was babes,it gets bigger and sadder when growing.Is beautiful but the more we get the more we go sad. Is like a teacher they say,the more we live,the more we learn. Stop putting your blames on me and accusing me of your failure. Stop telling me i hurt you or blame me for the pains you have been through,every mortal is responsible for whatever happens to him or her. I accept my mistakes and turn away from them. Forgive me for what i have done,we are all human,born with sins and mistakes,why keep what i have done to you in the past and hunt me in the future?? let it go and let peace rain. A poor child cries and screams for the mother, I sit and cry for help, what i may sit down and see,you will never stand to see it. My life has twist and turns,down and ups,is never smooth. My enemies laugh about it and make mockery of me,since birth till now. I may fall but i will never sleep down forever,i will rise and clean away my dirt just to move on. I will never give up. little by little the sun will rise and the moon will go away. Sadness may come at night but joy may arise in the morning. The last time i heard about love was from mom and dad. whenever they say it,i feel it and i receive it. I never knew a time will come for me to say it. mom and dad taught me everything but they taught me how to identify myself when i am in love. The never taught me the right woman and they taught me what love was. It was a homework,i had to do myself. That was when i release life was only about you and no one else. Parents and siblings will go away,they never live forever, learn as much as you can learn from them before they pass away. Stick to them,let them teach you the good and bad,so you will know when you finally meet it. A time will come that you will be in your own tight corner and will love to have someone help you out,but help will never come. Never say you are strong enough when you havent met something much stronger than you. Never say you are fearless when you havent met and killed your worst fears. Failing today doesnt mean you will fail all the time. try again is something you should know. There is no harm in trying. Success is not about the money and cars and fame you have but about how strong you stood in your trails and problems and never gave up. How happy can you be when you are rich and made life easier but how much happiness will you gain when you can help others to smile like you smile.
Blessed are those who havent seen but believed , how much more those who have seen and believed. Some have eyes but cant see,other have ears but cant hear and the rest have mouth but cant speak. some can hear but wouldnt understand,others can speak but wouldnt say it as it was,and the rest can see but the closer they get the hardest they see. never say i hate you when you know you still love the person. never say is over if you still wanna continue. never say i am done when you are tired but rather you are done when you are really done..You deceive the poor and kill the kids,you rape the women and slave the men.. and yet you complain we live in a crazy world. So then i ask who made it crazy? the pastor or the church member,the president or the minister,the teacher or the student,the driver or the conductor,the father or the mother, or should i ask if it was me or you? Many are those who cry for help and education, but yet we spend money on shows and fighting weapons.Everyone is crying out for peace but none of us is crying out for justice and equal right!. Everyone wants to go to heaven but none of us want to die. Everyone wants to be at the top but none of us want to start from the buttom! I dont want any peace,all i want is equal right and justice. If you give me equal right and justice automatically there will be peace and freedom.

So many things to say,i cry for myself and for the world, i feel the pain and i see the shame,i shake and i pray you read,take control of your thought life. Never allow your emotions to enslave you. take control of it and control your life..LET IT GO!!!!