My Skin Is My Sin

Sleepless Night

Anytime i lay my head on my pillow, it becomes a sleepless night. Days passes by, and night comes again, my eyes has become an enemy to sleep. Friends has turn to enemies, those who said they loved me turn out to hate me as well. People i helped now sees me in the dark and walk away. Those who i encouraged now turned away from me just because they have whatever they were looking for.
I made relationships work again when they were dead, i made couples believe in one another when they lack trust. I made the weak strong and the poor rich. Human are ungrateful they say but i never believed. Had i known is always the philosophy of the fool. I have become a fool, but i never regret what i did. i never regret the joy i brought into peoples life, i never regret the motivation,encouragement, the peace, the love, the trust, the jokes, the hopes and any other thing i established in the life of others.
None of them could remember me in thier good times, but i was their king in their bad times. None of them cares how i feel in my own pain, neither do they care how i feel being lonely in my dark.
Have you ever stand alone view how nice and calm nature is?? I am not blind but i see nothing, i am not deaf but i hear nothing, i am not dumb but i speak nothing and i am not dead but having sleepless night. I ma not hoping for any reward from people i know but i just want them to remember me anywhere they are. In this life you reap what you sow, those you meet on your way up, are the same people you will meet on your way down. The fact that you are happy today doesnt mean you will be happy forever. Those who always have good days will never know how it feels like to have a bad day, likewise those who have bad days will never know how it feels like to have a good day. The rich will never know how it feels like to be poor and the poor will never know how it feels like to be rich.
A child needs a mother and a brother needs a sister. None of us can live alone and stay like that forever. human needs human. The fact that you have never felt pain before doesnt mean pain never exist. You can never preach about something you have never experienced. A day is always dark for the blind. the blind do not put on glasses hoping he or she can see light through the glasses.
A sleepless night brings nothing but thinking. Thinking brings nothing but making decisions, decisions can only be made right or wrong, and any decision you make today, you shall live with it forever in life. When the heart is deceived, the man gets to be blamed, and when the mind gets to be blamed, the body gets to be punished, punishing the body brings nothing but tears and tears kills the soul. Becareful what you listen to,whom you listen to and how you talk to people. Do not expert something from people anytime you do them good. Lay down your help to people whenever you can but never say you will pay for the debt of someone when you know you cant pay.
Everything that happens in life, happens for a particular reasons, those who love you, will hurt and hate you. An enemy you know is better than an angel you have never seen. keep your enemies.
The enemy of a man is the people around him. Sometimes the downfall of a man can finally be the end of his life, be careful how you fall down, because you may never be able to bounce back.
Some things i got myself into brought me nothing but pain, why say is day when is night? why love when you hate? why cry when you have to laugh? why sleep when you have to work?
life offers us nothing but to live or die, the choice is ours. Never give up even when the ladder is still getting long, for everything in this world has an end. the young will grow and the old will die. The youth is so foolish that we always think, we are too young and death aint close to us, we always think with old age comes with death, ofcoure is true, with old age comes with death no matter what you will do. but death has no respect for age. death has no respect for the rich or poor. death has no respect for christians or muslims. death comes when we least expect it. Be prepare for life and whatever it bring forth. I have learnt my lessons in life and everything i have been through makes me stronger. They always say whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger but i say what doesnt kill you makes you a stranger. i have become a new person to the world!!