You have known Dean and Sam Winchester for some time now. When you were ten years old, John found you and took you in. When you were four months old, your family had abandoned you on the side of the road, thank god the Winchesters found you. But you grew up thinking that you were a monster, a freak. Because whenever you were on a hunt, the maniac inside of you took control. Your reckless behavior usually caused for someone to get hurt, but the Winchesters never blamed you. Sometimes you felt like you should be blamed, because it was your fault. You felt so much like burden. And every time, you would say that to the brothers, they would assure you that you most definitely weren't. They would say that you were the best thing that's ever happened to them, that they would be lost without you. But sometimes, their words didn't get through your skin, and you ended up feeling like you were a worthless freak. You battled depression, and you tried so hard not to give in.
Your bleakness is currently wounded right now, so you're presently in a non-suicidal state. But something wounded, will not stay down forever.
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Sammy and Dean are your best friends. You care and look out for each other's backs, it's what friends do.
But sometimes you wish you were more than that- with Dean anyways. His good looks are little compared to his big heart. On the outside, he appears to be a man of steel. But on the inside, you can see he is full of warmth and care. He would do anything to protect his family, whatever it takes. And you loved him for that.
It broke your heart to see him flirt at the bar with other girls. Not you. Sometimes, he would even keep one for a while until he had to break it off, and that would keep you up all night. You cried yourself to sleep, and in the morning you would do your best to recompose yourself.
But at a time, you didn't do a good job at that, and Sam took notice. That was when you confessed your love for his brother, and let's just say, his back was soaked from your tears. Every time he would go to tell Dean that you were in love with him, you begged him not to. Sam repeatedly told you that it was better to let it out than to keep it in, but you didn't listen. You just couldn't tell Dean that you were in love with him, you just couldn't. Because deep down inside, you knew he didn't love you back. And damn, it really hurt.
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When An Angel Comes Along (Castiel x Reader)
FanfictionYou're a suicidal orphan who has known the Winchesters all your life. You grew up to fall in love with Dean Winchester, your unrequited lover. One night, your emotions are triggered, and you're on the verge of spilling your own blood. But when a cry...
