Love by Angels

Chapter 12 :Not yet

Chapter 12:Not yet

     For dinner Lucas had made lasagna, and it was impeccable. Though the whole time I couldn't help but glance at that spot in the living room by the phone, and Lucas would try to distract me.

     "Thanks for dinner Lucas."

     "No problem."

     After Lucas and I cleaned up which seemed to take hours for only a couple dished, then we turned in.

     "I'm just going to change." I said. Lucas nodded and waited while I slipped into the bathroom. I put on my pyjama pants and a t-shirt then realized Lucas had no change of clothes, so I went to Lisa's room and reached for the box labeled David.

     "Here, I tought you might like something to wear. It was my Dad's old clothes." Lucas opened the box and searched for something to wear.

     "Thanks I'll be right back." Lucas took the box and headed to the bathroom, while I climbed under my covers and heard my phone buzz.

     "He's mine."

     I tossed my cell onto the nightstand and waited  for Lucas. He came back wearing old jogging pants and a t-shirt. He climbed under the covers beside me and kissed me. "Goodnight." I smiled and let myself melt into him.

    "Camron what are you doing here?" He stepped forward and pulled out something sharp, then blackness.

     "Lucas, Lucas?"

     "I'm here." But everything was black and I couldn't find him. Then light shed on the picture of Julia and Lucas on instant replay.

     "I told you he'd be mine."

     "Lucas!"

     "Adrene!"

     "I, I can''t breathe. It, it hurts.........Lucas.."

     "I'm right here." We kissed and I could breathe but when I opened my eyes he was gone.

     "Lucas!" I yelled. I woke up searching for him but all I found was red stained feathers.

     "Lucas..." I began to cry. My fingers started digging into the mattress trying to grab hold of something.

     "Adrene, wake up. Adrene wake up." A voice said. My eyes shot open and I moved my hand that seemed to be clawing at Lucas' chest. He wiped my eye and looked at me.

     "I love you ok, I'm right here."

     I began to cry again and curled up into a ball with Lucas holding me.

     "Don't leave, don't leave me." I tried to say through the tears.

     "I won't, I'm here."

     I looked at Lucas his eyes always seemed to calm me, and we moved closer. I gasped and kissed Lucas, he kissed me back. We started to move with each other and I held handfulls of his shirt. Lucas' hands grasped my hair and held my neck and my face so hard I thought my bones would break. I kissed Lucas more and thought I want this, I want this with him just not at this moment.

     "Lucas." I said through the kisses. "Lucas I can't" The kisses slowed and Lucas held me tight. "I love you, but I can't do this just yet." Lucas gave me one lastlingering kiss and pulled his face back inches from mine.

     "I know, not yet." I smiled and fell back asleep in his arms.

     I woke up to the smell of bacon and toast, Lucas was making breakfast.

    "Smells good." I said as I came into the kitchen.

     "Well eat it so we can get toschool, last day you know."

     I smiled and came over to him lifting my arms around his neck and pulling his face closer to mine. I whispered, "I know, but we aren't going to school because I'm sick." I kissed him and he laughed. "Oh now I'm sick. Guess we aren't and there is no getting rid of you." Lucas said smiling.

     "Nope." I ate all the wonderful breakfast in a heartbeat, I was starving.

     "Adrene what happened last night?"

     "What part?" I asked.

     "Er, the part where you were crying and clawing my skin, what was it?"

     I knew he would ask about it eventually. "It was just a dream. It was like everything horrible that had happened into one dream, but the end was the part that scared me the most." After Lucas heard that he knew that maybe he shouldn't have asked or ask anymore but I decided to tell him. "You were gone and it was as if I woke up from the dream but there was only bloody feathers left and I started to cry and sink my nails into the mattress.It was so real I thought it was real and then you woke me up, I was so relieved it was a dream. But I'm still scared and I don't want to be. You're the only one left I can trust and you make me feel safe that's why I don't want to go to school because when I'm away from you I am terrified. Scared that they will come for me like Camron did." I started to cry, "I was scared,"

     "It's ok you don't have to say anymore. Adrene, we are staying here today alright? We can stay here or go out." Lucas said.

     "I'd like that."

     Lucas didn't say much after that ,we had gotten  dress and Lucas wore my Dad's old jeans a t-shirt and a sweater. With everything going on I didn't notice Lucas' eyes or the tension in them. It was as if everything I had experienced and felt he felt ten times more. I think he thinks this is all his fault, and I know it's not. I wish he would understand that.

     "Lucas do you want to go out?" Lucas came to the doorway and looked outside, it was cloudy but no rain.... yet.

     "Yeah, love too."

     Lucas and Adrene grabbed their jackets and headed out the door. They walked down the sidewalks and through the dew infested grass all through silence. There was no words that could be said, each person was scared for themselves and their partner's.

     Lucas would look at Adrene form time to time but would then stare off into space thinking of ways to keep her safe, he would do anything for her safety.

     "Lucas are you alright?" Lucas looked away and replied, "Yes." But Adrene didn't buy it. She grasped his chin and pulled his face towards her's.

     "Lucas, you're not alright."

     "No I am." Adrene looked up into his eyes they were deep in thought distant.

     "Lucas I'm scared too but."

     "But what Adrene? What? What could you possibly do that would keep you safe!"

     "I--"

     Lucas breathed deeply, "Sorry I am just trying to figure out what to do." Adrene leaned forward and kissed him.

     "Shh, don't think ok? Just enjoy what we can I, I don't want to think about that." Lucas nodded and they continued walking down the path back to Adrene's.