Team Single Malt Scotch (one shots)

Trying To Overcome For Not Just Myself

It's been less than a month, aren't you guys proud? Anyway, enjoy!

Kurt's POV

"Did you need to record anything, or can I?" I ask, glancing curiously at Tyler.

"I have to record with Etho in an hour, but until then you can."

"Ok, I have record FLoB."

"Alright, I'm gonna head to the store to get stuff for dinner, anything sound good to you?"

"Whatever is fine. Could you get a bottle of scotch, the one we have is almost empty."

Tyler smirks slightly. "Of course."

I raise a questioning eyebrow.

"Your adorable when your drunk. You get all giggly."

"Planning on getting me drunk, are you?"

"Possibly." Tyler teases, wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me closer.

"That might not be a bad thing." I tease, kissing him lightly.

"Well, I better go, I love you."

"I love you too."

We share a brief kiss before he leaves. After he does, I head into our office. The house we bought is nice, but it only has one big office, so we both have our computers in it. It can be kinda stressful, but we make it work. The only thing we really haven't worked out yet is the live streaming thing. I try to stream every Tuesday, and Tyler streams whenever, but he usually streams for hours on end, which makes recording difficult.

I sit down at my computer and boot it up, setting everything up for recording. Today was kind of a special day, it was the five hundredth episode. I wanted to do something special, but it had to be quick. I quickly start up Minecraft and start recording.

By the time I finish, I hear the front door open. I log off of Minecraft and start the long process of editing.

"Hey, I gotta record." Tyler says, coming into the office.

"Okay, I just gotta edit this, I'll be quiet."

"You, quiet, I'd never guess." Tyler teases.

"Hm, you never know, I could be loud." Even I laughed at that.

"Your a goof and I love you."

"I know." I chuckle. "I love you too."

Tyler sends me a smile before heading over to his computer. I hear the Skype call and hear Tyler's laughter.

"Kurt's here, but he said he'd be quiet." Tyler says.

"Etho says hi Kurt."

I wave over to him, despite knowing Etho can't see me. I let them have their fun while I edit the episode. I know ridding a pig is silly, but hey, I had to do something special. I glance over my shoulder, seeing Tyler smiling brightly, laughing, frantically mashing buttons. It was rather cute, if I were to be honest.

I stand up an walk over to him after he finished panicking over something. I mouthed 'mute your mic' which he did.

"I'm gonna go record a vlog in the living room."

"A vlog?"

"Yeah."

"Ok, I'll try to keep it down."

"Thanks, love ya."

"Love ya too."

I head out to the living room, after grabbing the camera and tripod. I set it up and head to the bathroom, where I fix my hair. I head back out to the living room, taking a deep breath. I wanted to do this, I needed to, but god does it scare me. I push that aside and turn on the camera before sitting down on the couch.

"Hello ladies and gentleman, and welcome to a vlog thing. I know I don't so these often, but I wanted to tell you guys something. As you know, I'm not the most open person with you guys, I try to be, but sometimes I find things too personal to share. But, you guys have been so loyal and have helped me tremendously. And, with all that said, I wanted to tell you guys, I'm gay."

I pause for a moment, collecting my thoughts. "I know that's probably not something you expected to ever hear from me, but, it's true. I finally feel somewhat comfortable enough to share this with you guys. I hope this doesn't change anything with you the viewers, but I feel being able to be more myself with you guys will create a better connection. If this is something that does bug you, or offend you, then I'm sorry, but it's who I am, and if you choose to quiet watching, then that's fine."

I take a deep breath before beginning my outro. "Anyway, thank you guys for watching! My name is Kurt, and I, will see you, next time!"

I quickly end the recording and head back into the office quietly, though Tyler appeared to be done recording.

"Hey, how'd the vlog go?" Tyler questions, spinning in his chair to face me.

"It uh.... it went well, I think."

"What was it about?" He asks curiously, coming over and sitting on my lap, obviously sensing my unease.

"About being gay...." I say, unable to meet his gaze, though I really wasn't sure why.

"What brought this up, your obviously very uncomfortable with admiring that to the fans."

"I just feel like telling them this, is gonna help me in same way..."

"Help get over some insecurities?"

"Yeah, I think so."

"You know you don't have to do this if its too much."

"I know, but I feel like I need too."

"If this is about eventually telling the fans about us, then don't worry, really, we'll tell them when were ready, even if that means not for years."

"It's not really about that, I guess it's more overcoming my own fears and insecurities.

"Alright, well. it's your decision, just know I love you either way."

"I love you too." I reply and kiss him, letting that contact release some of my tension, letting myself melt into the kiss.

After a while, and many more kisses, Tyler went back to his desk to edit. I plugged in my headphones and re watched the video. It was decent, at least, I only looked slightly nervous. I quickly edit it and start the render, which surprisingly didn't take too long, and uploaded the video. I turned off my monitor and stretched. I'm not really sure what is to happen, but I can only hope that things go well.

"Hey Kurt, you wanna go have some scotch under the stars to sooth your nerves?" Tyler asks, a knowing look on his face.

"Yeah, I'd like that." I reply, my voice wavering slightly.

We head out into the quickly darkening world and sit next to each other, a bottle of scotch between us.

"You know, I'm proud of you, for posting that video." Tyler says gently, glancing at me.

"Proud?" I question curiously.

"I know you find that type if thing awkward, but you did it anyway, and I couldn't even imagine doing something like that."

"Well, your admittance was derived in a drunken tweet, so you technically already did."

"That's true, but I had the influence of alcohol then, this took a lot from you physically, I can tell."

"Yeah..... I just hoped that the fans approve."

"I hope they do too. Especially since we'll have to tell them about us, eventually."

"Yeah..... but I don't even wanna think about that." I say, taking a big drink from the bottle.

"I don't either." Typer says, mimicking my actions. "Lets just focus on us, for now."

I lean in and kiss Tyler, wrapping my arms around him. "I couldn't agree more."