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Chapter 4

"I thought I would be done with all this" I sobbed into his chest.

"Hey, It'll be okay, we can block the numbers, or change your number alright?" He said trying at making me feel better.

"Okay." I barely spoke out.

I stepped out of his arms, and walked out of the house. I stood on the porch looking out at the peaceful night. The moon was shinning, people were sleeping or wrapping up their happy days and getting ready for sleep. There was a slight breeze and the night just felt so still and I wished with all my heart right here that I could have this for the rest of my life.

I sat down on the steps and began to let the tears pour out of me. I haven't completely broken down like that in years, months, weeks, days. It was all the pain from my mother dying, my dad becoming abusive, getting taken out of the house, going away, not being stable, just everything thats happened since I was 13.

I calmed down after a few minutes and just sat there. I knew Alex, and Charlotte were both standing at the screen door watching me, ready to run after me if I had any thoughts of just running out.

"I know your both there, I'm okay though, I'm just going to go on into bed." I said shakily and then moved passed them into the house.

I went up the steps into the bathroom. I closed the door behind me and stripped out of my dirty clothes. I tied my hair up in a bun and washed my face, and brushed my teeth. I turned on the shower and let the warm water run through my body and just cleanse away the bad of today. I hoped out of the shower and dry off. I find the clothes that have been left mysteriously out on the counter. (Alex's works) I stepped into them and just felt better. My eyes were still puffy, red and blood shot but hey. Some sleep will fix that.

I walked out of the bathroom, slipping into Alex's bed.

Within an hour, the bed pressed down and an arm snaked around my waist. I went into his arms and let the warmth go through my whole body.

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*~*~ALEX"S POINT OF VIEW*~*~*

Watching her close her eyes as a voice raged on the other end, and then the tears begin to spill out of her eyes. Tore me apart. I wanted to punch her dad in the face and leave him begging for mercy. (again) Watching her hurt, just tears me up and I can't do anything about it.

"Hey." I wrapped my arms around her. "It'll be okay, we can block the numbers, change your number alright?" I said, meaning everything I was saying and trying with every fiber in me to make her feel better.

"okay" I heard her whisper. I swear you split me in half and find my heart you wouldn't its gone. That damn bastard had to go and cause her pain and make all this shit happen in her life.

She broke away from me. She walked out to the front porch. I followed her quietly. My mom on my tail.

She sat down on the steps, and just began to sob. But I knew better, that this was not the time to go to her and comfort her. No, this was a time to let her cry and pour out some of the pain in her life. She stood up.

"I know your both there, I"m okay though, I'm just going to go on into bed." I heard her voice shake and strain. She walked inside, and up the steps. When I heard the bathroom door shut, I moved from my spot.

"Hey, you know I think we needa get her a phone, thats not connected to her father at all." My mom said.

"Yeah, no she needs to just stop all communication with her father period." I said a little bit to harshly.

"Yes, But Alex, there isn't much control we have in that. Its going to have to be her choice." SHe said trying to keep her calm.

"Well, you have some control in her life now, why don't you say something?" I said about to begin punching the walls again.

"Because, If I did that would be like me taking the role of HER parents, and I'm not that. I'm here to take care of her and make sure she is safe. I can not control what she does in her personal life, who she is, what she becomes, or who the hell she is contact with. ANd Alex, you need to drop whatever damn grudge you have against me, It is NOT my fault her father did the things he has done. IT is NOT my fault your father left you. YOu hear me?" Her voice shook and yet was stern. I knew she was right.

"I'm sorry. It's why did dad leave" I said softly. I missed dad. He used to do everything with me, he was like a big brother to me rather than a parent. Him and mom were the perfect couple. And then one day he left. Just out of the blue. I began all the stupid fighting and badboy image then. I think Kim changed that for me. At least she got the side of me to come out.

"Alex, he cheated. He has another kid, wife, life, everything. Stop bringing him up." Tears in her eyes she left. Oh right Mom and Dad got a divorce like a month after he left, he sent the damn contract in the mail.

That tears it. I can't believe he would do such a thing. I haven't even heard from that ass in years. Why the hell didn't he ever tell me or mom?

I walked up the steps and into my room. I grabbed Kim a t-shirt and her underwear. I opened the bathroom door and set them on the counter.

I then just went back downstairs and sat and had another beer.

The phone rang again. I answered. "hello?"

"Alex? Son is that you?" The male voice was familiar. Where had I heard that voice before?

"Ah. yeah this is Alex, may I ask who is calling?" I questioned into the phone.

"Alex, this is your dad, "

I cut him off. "What the fuck do you want? You left us! You divorced her and you left me! what the fuck do you want?" I nearly shouted into the phone.

"Alex, Charlotte called me and asked me to call the house phone to tell you the whole story." That pissed me off. I knew my mom, I knew she told me enough and I didn't need to know anymore so i knew this bastard was doing this on his own terms.

"FIne. Start."

"I did cheat on your mother." My fists clenched." Her name is Jenny. She got pregnant and I left you and your mother. I know it was wrong but I was going to support her. I divorced your mother. I am sorry but I did. Jenny and I have four kids. Jani is our eldest daughter, Izzie, Daniel, and Riley is our newest babygirl. Alex all i'm asking is for you to know the story. I left yes, I made the biggest damn mistake in my life, and I will never be forgiven because your mother loved me. And I ruined her life. One part of the story you do not know is that Charlotte was one month pregnant when I left her. She had an abortion." He paused.

"Continue"

"Then, I was ashamed and too caught up in my children's lives except yours. I am sorry."

"Bye Randy." I said but before I could hit the end button.

"ALEX DONT YOU CALL YOUR FATHER BY HIS FIRST NAME. YOU APOLOGIZE NOW." He shouted through the phone.

I took this as a chance to insult my father more. "You know what Randy? No, because you are not my father. I don't call strangers and bastards 'dad' and you can take the bullshit of an apology and shove it up your wife's ass and get her pregnant again? And i don't wanna hear from you ever again, you fucked up my life so quit doing it more and leave me alone." I smirked.

"ALE--" I slammed the phone on its cradle and smiled.

"bye Dad. Nice knowing you."

I went up the stairs and slipped into bed with Kim. Wrapping my arm around her waist, I knew everything would be okay. She's the only thing I've got worth living for anymore.

"I love you babe." I whispered in her ear and then drifted off into a sleep.

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