I love you baby.

Chapter 10

Alex sat back. Taking it all in. Today he had lost the only girl in his life and he was never going to get her back. And she died in a place he could not protect her. His anger began rising above himself. He couldnt protect her. And thats the one thing he could do. It was protect her from all the shit in her life.

But to protect her in her sleep he couldnt do. He had failed her. Failed to a new level and he couldn't handle this. He wanted to die now and it's because of that damn kid Kyle.

"If I hadn't of killed him, Kim would still be here" he said to Austin and Ronnie.

"Hey bud you can't blame yourself for this mess, Kyle was an ass, and you did what you thought was right" Ronnie said trying to tell his brother off.

"Who wants a damn beer?!" Alex grunted back

"Me" Austin came.

~*alexs point of view begins*~

I should've just knocked his ribs out and he'd still be alive. She would still be here! She wouldn't be gone. He ruined it for me! He always does. I slugged my beer dry. Not feeling buzzed I grabbed up another. I fucked up and lost the girl of my damn dreams! I could've married her! She was mine not his! Why couldn't he stop being a fucktard and just leave her alone??? SHE SHOULDNT BE GONE BUT SHE IS!!!! I ran to the porch. "ARE YOU HAPPY NOW KYLE? She's gone! BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!!" I screamed and broke down and threw up on the porch. "She's gone and she's not coming back!"

"Hey shhh. Baby shhhh" a gentle voice angelic voice...

I vommitted again. "Baby it's okay, I'm right here"

"Kim?" I pleaded

"Yeah baby?"

"Are you really here?"

"Yes baby I am"

"Kim?"

"Yes?"

"Take me with you."

"Aww baby I never left"

"How? They pronounced you dead...."

Kim kissed me then. Real Kim. "Baby I never left. I came back for you."

"Is it really you?"

"Yes baby"

I took her hand. Her warm and soft hand. She was still alive. She's my baby girl she's still here. A new warmth of happy raced through my body. I smile at her and she smiles back.

Hans in hand we walk back into the house.

"Kim?!" Austin asked in disbelief.

"Hey bud, it's really me"

"But how?" Came a very confused Austin

She closed her eyes as if it hurt if she were to tell anyone. But she stepped back. 13- foot white wings came from her shoulders. A halo above her head.

She held my hand. "Hey baby."

"Kim?" Charlotte walked in and stopped; obviously stunned.

"Mom!" She turned around and hugged her. "I mean Charlotte."

"Oh no moms fine with me." She smiled.

Wings folded in once again and everyone sitting on the couch we sat down to listen to Kim's story. "So Kyle was a demon in my earth soul, tormenting me. But when I died I didn't die. I was called into an alliance of angels, and I now serve to help those who need it and I may live on earth as long as I accomplish what I need to. Work lasts weeks at a time but I am not dead. I mean I am. But not really. And this stays only in the family right in this room." Kim finished.

I just held her hand and was glad I still had my girl-- angel.

"Aw cute thought baby."

I turned bright red. "Mind reading?"

"Yep"

"But I have to get going I have an assignment I should be back on the 18th by noon. I love you all." From the porch she unfolded her wings and took another smile at me before leaving. And she flew off. Up up and away.

"Bye baby girl I love you" I whispered and smiled.

"I love you too baby" came a silent thought in my mind. I smiled once more before heading back into the house.

She isnt dead, she is still here, still part of my life. The best thing of my life has now become even better. She is an angel. A true and real angel.

"Dear god, protect my angel from danger. Thank you for protecting her for as long as you did and now giving her such a well fit to her job. Thank you. Amen" i did this all under my breath. But i havent prayed in years. Even longer since ive been to church.

But i smiled. I love my angel. Wait? Is she mine still? Can we still be a couple? Could she be in relationships with humans? Er mortals? What are the rules? What if this angel thing means she isnt mine to love anymore? Shes no longer my forever? The thoughts run over and over in my head.

I know she is still here and alive. And real. But what if i cant have her? I love her. More than ive loved any other girl. I dont wanna lose her! But... What if i have to push away my feelings for her? She is the angel after all.

I rocked myself to sleep in the rocking chair of my room. I slept all night having dreams of kim falling in love with another angel. And i couldnt compete with an angel. But i had other dreams of her chosing me, loving me and others when i was an angel too. I loved that one most. But i cant be an angel. Could i? I could if i tried. Only would that be enough? I drove my mind crazy all night of all the other thoughts.

It was the 8th. 10 days and she'll be home. I could ask her all my questions. Thats if she comes back, she may get called. Angels are needed right? Eveywhere too? So i may not get to even see her soon.

I'll have to hope for the 10 days. I sat at the kitchen table thinking through it all. I hope i can be with Kim. I need to be with kim. I'll drive myself insane.

One beer. Two beer. Its only noon. Three beers. A cigerrette. Another beer. An hour at the gym. Crashing on the couch watching kim's favorite movies. The ones we'd watch when her daddy took a whack at her and she'd

Coming running over here in tears then she'd fall asleep on my shoulder. I smiled at the memories. I fell asleep during the twilight series. The dreams came back.

But its the pleasent ones.

I woke up the next morning to a sting in my shoulder and a massive hang over. I rolled over on the couch and found painkillers in the coffee table drower and took three pills dry. I leaned back and fell back asleep, letting sleep and depression take over my riggid body. Was i dreaming? or was she really an angel? 

"Kim" I looked up to the heavens maybe trying to find myself or her up in the skies. "Kim, I love you" I weeped and fell to my dreams again. Only awakening a couple hours later to grab a smoke and then head in to sit on the couch.  I thought all day; I drank a few Mt. Dews rather than beer. Knowing if an Angel was who I loved; i'd have to stop drinking sooner or later. But was she an angel this whole time? Or was she even human? Was she sent to see the bad first then to later became the strong? If she's an angel what the hell am I? How can such an angel, super natrual a beauty.. hang out with such a loser? I'm such a piece of shit, how could she even possiblly love me? I don't desserve her. I never did, nor ever do. I failed on protecting her, I let her slip through my fingers, and now? I don't even get to see her. I love her. I love her. I repeated this in my mind all day long. The thoughts until the 10 days were over. 

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