Where My Heart Lies

Chapter Eight

Bryan

 I tried getting a hold of Lorain, to at least hear her voice but of course she didn't answer. I don't blame her at all. I really hurt her. I can't stand being away from her. I am going to try and talk to her. I am walking up her drive way and rang the door bell. Her mom answers the door.

 "Hello Mrs.Williams, is Lorain home? I need to talk to her." She stared at me for a couple of seconds. "Well I don't know if she wants to see you. You hurt her. And I think It's best if you and her don't be together anymore."

 "I understand, but isn't that up to her? I love her and I never meant for that to happen. I know I really hurted her but I need to show her how sorry I am."

 "Okay let me go talk to her and see." She left me outside for a couple of minutes and then she came back. "I am sorry Bryan but she doesn't want to see you anymore. She said she wants nothing to do with you." With that she closed the door.

 I am really hurting inside. I did this to myself. I walked down the steps and started walking on the sidewalk up the hill. I put my hands in my pockets and tears started to come down my cheeks. We are really done. We are not together anymore. Part of me just wants to go back and run into her room and hug her close to me and tell her how much I love her and never ever want to loose her. But the other part of me just wants to die and get away from here. How am I ever going to live again and be happy?

Lorain

 Yesterday, my mom came to me and asked if I wanted to see Bryan. What the hell? I never ever want to see that kid again. He needs to get out of head and out of my life. But he can't ever be out of my life. He is going to be in it forever. I got out of bed and rubbed my small tummy. The clock read 8 o'clock. Shit my appointment starts in thirty minutes. I quickly ran to my dresser, got my clothes out and ran into the shower. I quickly washed my hair and my body. After I was done putting on my clothes, I ran downstairs and into the living room where my mom was reading a book.

  "Mom, i am ready to go." She got up from where she was reading and grabbed her car keys. "Alright lets get going."

 We got into the car and I put my seat belt on. My stomach started to growl with hunger and I rubbed it quickly. "We will stop to get breakfast after the appointment." My mom smiled at me.

 She pulled into the hospital's parking lot and we both got out of the car. Once we were inside, she signed me in. I sat down in the waiting room and saw all of the children's toys and how many little kids and babies were here. They looked so adorable. Some kids had toys in their mouths and starting swinging them around. I saw a woman with a baby in her arm and was cuddling him. The baby was asleep and had a little hat on. I wonder if that's how my baby will look? I actually can't wait to be a mother to my baby. I will care for it so much and spoil him or her. "Mom, will you and dad ever visit the baby and I in flordia?" I smiled at her.

 "Of course we will honey, like we said, we will always be there for you and we will be there when the baby will be born." She squeezed my hand. Just then the doctor called my name. I got up from where I was sitting and followed the doctor into a small little room. "Well hello Ms. Williams, how have you been feeling?"

 "Okay i guess, I just have been really stressed out lately." I tried to smile at the doctor. She got up from where she was sitting and layed me down onto the bed. She started to listen to my heart beat and the baby's heart beat. "Well the heart beats are at their right pace. I am just going to do a little ultrasound to see how far along you are." She walked over and washed her hands. She smeared the jelly ontop of my stomach, it felt really cold but also good. She turned on the machine and ran the little wand over my small stomach. On the black screen shown a little baby, with his head and stomach of what I could see. Tears started to come down my cheeks. I can't believe that's my baby.