Impressing Ms. Mills

Five

It's amazing
so amazing how
I've survived this road

Feel the fever
I can feel it down
inside my soul

And I'll be the one
to build you up
i'll build you up

be the one
to never doubt
I'll never doubt, oh

Can you see how
can you see how far
we've come
it's such a miracle

Everything is
everything is clear
and you are such a wonder

And I will be the one
to build you up
I'll build you up

Be the one
to never doubt
I'll never doubt
never doubt

It's amazing
so amazing how
I've survived this road

Feel the fever
I can feel it down
inside my soul

I'll be the one
to build you up
I'll build you up

I'll be the one
to never doubt
i'll never doubt

I'll be the one
to hold your hand
I'll hold your hand

I'll be the one
to understand
yeah, i'll understand

I'll be the one
to build you up
I'll build you up

I'll be the one
to never doubt
I'll never doubt

I'll never doubt
I'll never doubt
I'll never doubt
I'll never doubt
I'll never doubt
I'll never doubt
I'll never doubt

I woke up screaming, again, and tried to wipe the tears off of my face. It's almost noon. It's been about a month and a half since that night and I'm still having nightmares. I've been spending as much time out of the house as possible. So has David. I still haven't talked to anyone about this. Today's Friday. Mom let me stay home because I haven't been sleeping good and she said I could use the rest. I tried to even out my breathing but I couldn't. Then my bedroom door opened and I sat up. I furrowed my eyebrows seeing Regina. She closed my door behind her and walked over to my bed. "I was about to ring the doorbell when I heard your screaming.. So, then I found the spare key.." She mumbled. I nodded and she walked over and sat down on my bed. She got under the covers and wrapped her arms around me. "I... I'm ready to talk to s-someone about it.. I... I'm just scared you won't want me anymore." I whispered. "Baby, nothing you could say or do would make me not want to be with you." She said and rubbed my arm. "I... I got depressed after that night. I.. I don't know how to deal with it. I don't know how to deal with anything. I can't fucking sleep, I can't hardly eat. I can't do anything." I said, my voice broken. "Darling, I don't know what to tell you if you don't tell me what happened.." She mumbled. I nodded against her shoulder and I took a deep breath. "Y-you have to promise you won't tell anyone or leave me." I mumbled. "I can promise you I won't leave. I can't promise you I won't tell anyone because you might need help other than me." She said, quietly. I bit my lip and laid my hand on her side. "I.. T-that Friday... I-it was late. It was midnight. I was walking home from R-Ruby's house because I had already told mom I would be home and I.. I-I.. H-he was drunk and he stopped me and h-he he wouldn't let me leave and-" I stopped, taking a shuttering breath, now crying again. "Baby it's okay. Take your time." She said, quietly. I took a few deep breaths and tried to calm down as she held me. "H-he raped me. And I-I can't tell mom because she won't believe me and then she'll send me back and I can't go back into the system! I can't." I sobbed. She held onto me tight and rocked me, gently. "My love, who did this to you?" She asked, quietly. "I.. Can't tell you. You won't believe me." I said, sadly. "Baby, I saw you that night. I will believe you." She said, quietly. I bit my lip and nuzzled closer to her. "D-David.." I said, almost inaudibly. "David did this to you?!" She shouted, squeezing me tight. I nodded against her shoulder and she held onto me even tighter. "Baby, has he touched you since?" She asked, angrily. "H-he hasn't been around much.. Um.. He yells at me a lot more. He smacked me in an argument.. But that was all." I mumbled. "Baby, please. We have to tell someone. I will not sit by as you live here with your rapist and just allow him to abuse you. Has he touched your brot-" "no. He wouldn't ever touch my brothers." I said, cutting her off. "I.. I don't even know who to tell." I whispered. "If I go to the police department, he'll be there." I mumbled. "Why don't we go to your mother? She's the mayor. I have pictures from that night. I can send them to you and you can say Ruby took them and sent them to you." She said, quietly. "I can't go back, Regina. I can't-" "you won't go back, my love. You're 18. So you're too old. If, and I highly doubt she will, but if she kicks you out.. There is always me. You can live with me. Okay?" She said, holding onto me for dear life. I nodded. "I... Don't know how to tell her.." I whispered. She kissed my head and I frowned. "Baby. It's going to be okay." She whispered. "No it's not. I have to fucking live here with him and see him every fucking day. I'm constantly scared he's going to come home drunk one night and want seconds. I can't fucking live like that. I can't fucking live here. I can't." I spit, getting up and going to my bathroom. I locked the door and leaned against it as my sobs ripped through my body. I slid down the door and pulled my knees to my chest. "Emma... Sweety, please don't shut me out." She said, quietly. I bit my lip before closing my eyes. You should've never told her. "Baby please.." She mumbled. I leaned my head on the door and tried to take a deep breath. I couldn't catch my breath as I continued crying.
Four years old with my back to the door
All I could hear was the family war
Your selfish hands always expecting more
Am I your child or just a charity ward?

You have a hollowed out heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it but it's hopeless
Hopeless, you're hopeless

Oh, father, please, father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, father, please, father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter
Oh

It's been five years since we've spoken last
And you can't take back
What we never had
Oh, I can be manipulated
Only so many times,
Before even "I love you"
Starts to sound like a lie

You have a hollowed out heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it but it's hopeless
Hopeless, you're hopeless

Oh, father, please, father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, father, please, father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter

Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?
How could you push me out of your world,
Lied to your flesh and your blood,
Put your hands on the ones that you swore you loved?
Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?
How could you throw me right out of your world?
So young when the pain had begun
Now forever afraid of being loved

Oh, father, please, father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, father, please, father

Oh, father, please, father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter
For the love of a daughter

After almost an hour of crying to myself, I got up and took a deep breath. I unlocked the door and opened it to see Regina still standing there. She immediately pulled me into her arms and I just stood there, limp. "Baby, please. Will you please talk to your mom? I don't want you living here with that man." She said, her hand on the back of my head. "But he's my father. He's supposed to love me and never hurt me and I just.. How the hell could he do this?" I asked, my voice cracking. She held onto me tight and kissed my head. "My love, he's a sick man. He deserves to rot in hell for what he did to you. I understand you love him, but baby, this cannot go unpunished." She said, quietly. I frowned and wrapped my arms around her waist. "I-I.. Will you drive me to city hall?" I whispered. "Yes baby." She said, quietly and kissed my head again. I nodded and pulled away from her. She wiped my tears away and then leaned in, kissing me gently. She pulled away and brushed a piece of my hair back. I grabbed my phone from my desk and saw Regina had sent me the pictures from that night. I cringed and looked away. I pulled my leather jacket on over my v-neck t-shirt and left on my yoga pants. I pulled on a pair of my Vans and put my phone in my pocket. I looked up to Regina and she smiled at me. I kissed her gently and when I pulled away, she looked at me in amazement. "You're so brave. So so brave." She whispered. I managed to crack a small smile and she smiled brightly. "Come on." I mumbled. She nodded and we left my room. We went downstairs and left the house. We went to her car and got in. I grabbed her right hand and she squeezed my hand lovingly. "Aren't you supposed to be at school?" I asked, quietly. "Yes. But when you weren't in first or second, I got worried. So I took a half day and came on my lunch. Because I was worried about you." She said, softly. I nodded and looked out the window as she drove.

As we got closer to city hall, my heart beat fast and faster. Oh gods. I can't do this. I felt Regina squeeze my hand again and I realized I had zoned out. Regina was parked and I took a deep breath. "I'll uh... Be out soon.." I mumbled. She nodded and I kissed her gently before getting out. I took a few deep breaths before walking in. I went upstairs and to my moms secretary. She smiled up at me. I couldn't even try to smile. "Uh.. Is my mom free?" I mumbled. She smiled again. "Let me check." She said. I nodded and she picked up the phone. She pressed a few buttons and then waited. "Mayor Nolan, there's someone to see you." She said. Then she smiled and hung up. "Go on to her office." She said. I nodded and did as told. I took a deep breath as I knocked on my mom's office door. I heard 'come in', so I opened the door before going in. My mom looked up at me and furrowed her eyebrows. "Emma? What's going on?" She asked and closed a file folder. I swallowed heavily and felt the tears in my eyes. "W-we need to talk.." I whispered and felt my heart squeeze. Oh gods this is going to be bad.