Impressing Ms. Mills

Six

"Honey, what's wrong?" Mom asked as tears fell from my eyes. "I... I have to tell you this and it's really big and I... I'm scared you're not going to believe me." I said, my voice cracking. Mom got up from her desk and closed the door, then grabbed my hand, gently pulling me to the couch. "Sweetheart, what happened?" She said and stared into my eyes. I looked away as more tears clouded my vision and I took a deep breath. "Y-you remember that night after my birthday? I... I stayed at R-Ruby's house because it was so late?" I asked, my heart speeding up. "Yes.. And you got in that fight." She mumbled. "I... I w-wasn't initially going to stay at her house but i... And I wasn't I-in a fight.. I.. I was going to w-walk home because it was l-late and I-I didn't want to wake up granny." I said, my voice broken from my tears. "Emma, what happened." She said, concern in her voice. "I... H-he was drunk and he got mad because it was after my curfew and he yelled at me and then h-he ripped my clothes off and h-he raped me, mom. Daddy raped me." I said, a sob ripping from my throat. Tears made wet tracks down my cheeks and I tried not to cry harder. She was silent for a minute, so I looked up at her. I couldn't read the expression on her face. Then she stood up. "Well, you must've done something to provoke him. Your father would never rape you. You don't know what rape is. It must've been something you did." She said, her back towards me. It was like a punch to the gut. I got up and began leaving. "Where are you going. We're talking about-" I cut her off by slamming her office door behind me and I ran towards the stairs, hearing her secretary asking if I was okay. I ignored her and ran to the stairs, running down them. My sobs ripped my body apart and I couldn't see through my tears. I wiped my eyes and ran towards the black Benz. I threw the door open and got in, slamming the door behind me. My sobs were loud and painful and I put my head in my hands. "Gods baby, what happened?" She asked and laid her hand on my thigh. I shook my head and tried to catch my breath. "We're gonna go back to my house. Okay?" She asked, quietly. I nodded and she squeezed my thigh. Before I knew it, we were at a stop and she squeezed my thigh again. She got out, but I couldn't move. My door opened and she scooped me into her arms. I leaned my head on her shoulder and she leaned down and kissed my forehead. "You're safe now." She whispered. I nodded and she carried me inside.

I played with a thread on Regina's tank top as we laid in bed and I stared at nothing. "She told me it was my fault and that I didn't know what rape was." I said, my voice raspy. "Gods, she's such a fucking idiot." Regina spit and tightened her arms around me. I reached across her and grabbed my phone from her nightstand. I opened my messages and I went to my moms. I added the pictures Regina sent me to the message before sending 'that's what he did. Believe it or not, it happened.' I locked my phone and put it back on her nightstand. "What am I supposed to do.. I.. I can't go back there." I mumbled. "Baby, you're not going back there. I will not let you. You can stay here.. Or I'm sure Ruby would let you stay with-" "I want to stay here." I mumbled, cutting her off. She kissed my head and I snuggled closer to her.

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And I know everything will be alright