**Adds a song i like because i can**
Do you ever have those moments.
those moments when you believe anything is possible
that reality has no power over a dream
one of those moments when you feel like you can make things happen
you know,change....life.
yeaaa that doesnt go well for me.
personally, i like to think reality is Imagenary, but just a jealous twin (idek)
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When i make roleplays.
i know i cant get any type of message out there
heck, i dont even have anyone spacific to roleplay with because i know even if i did tag people, it just turns awkward and they leave.
but i still like to think of roleplays
with hope. (probably explains my obsession with undertale ATM)
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i say things.
things that either sound completly crazy, random, or dark and creepy.
they come off as, me being playful.
but really, they have no idea what i really mean.
( and ITS NOT ANYTHING SEXUAL OR THINGS LIKE THAT, I KNOW PEOPLE HAVE DIRTY MINDS SO I JUST WANNA PUT THAT OUT THERE XD)
i dont say what i really mean.
because when i try, it becomes poptarts and llamas and that kind of shit.
tbh...thats not me.
dont get me wrong, i DO like to be random sometimes.
but personally, i think my randomness just hides a feeling i have that i never let get the best of me (or at least try)
i know this part has been random thoughts, but i guess its kinda nice having them printed.
usually, im always talking to myself alone in my room.
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i guess in a way i feel alone.
i feel like i should just...give up.
people say they are there for you.
they say they will never leave.
but too me, theres no point for me to say that to anyone because in a way, its just means "i wanna be nice now that you decided to share this"
that means nothing to me.
i have thoughts.
i hide them.
if i could, i would try to do something to kill myself and make it seem like a accident.
like, whats the point, im probably fucking dieing inside already.
but then i remember hope.
and i end up crying because i know there ARE people who care about me (like my parents) who would be upset
but.....
you know what.
forget this.
forget all of it.
who cares.
i know people dont.
i know im probably gonna be too embarrassed or whatever then end up deleting this later on.
iv almost deleted my Social media acc due to that reason.
anyway.
Goodbye.
i guess ill see you next part or whatever
~LindsayPhoenix
no.
~LindsayNeece.
better.
:P
