Come Dance with me, Mr Player!

Why am i here if people keep on hurting me?

Allies P.O.V

I woke up. Had breakfast and tidyed up the house. Boring. Ever since i had that fight with Sam a week ago its like ive been doing the same routine over and over again. Its been a week since i've seen sam last. He hasnt tried to ring me, facebook me or anything. Now that hurts.

I went outside and got blasted with hot air. It was 36 degrees out today. I decided i would go for a swim. I looked in the house and saw Charlie, Kyle and one of kyles mates named Ethan. The rest were either studying, out playing sport or hanging with some girl. I asked all of them if they wanted to go to the beach with me. They all said yes in a heart beat.

They went t put there swimmers on and i went to my room and went to decide which one to put on. In the end i chose a purple and pick swimmers. I loved it, i got it from a family friend that went to greese one year. I put it on short shorts, i put my ray bans on then slipped my thongs on. I got a towel, sunscrean and some spare clothes and put them into a bag for later. I grabbed my ipod then walked out of my room. All the guys mouths dropped. This is the most skin ive ever shown to them.

'Stop stareing guys and come on' i laughed and they grinned and raced out.

It was a 20 minuite walk from the boarding house so we just walked. Once we got there i set out my towel and took of my shorts and thongs. I layed down on the towel and listened to my music for about 10 minuites when freezing cold water was thrown on me. I gasped and sat up. I looked and saw Charlie had thrown water on me. He grinned and winked then ran off. I got up then chased after him. We ran half way around the beach and finally i tackled him to the floor and straddled him. I got some sand and ran it through his hair. I heard a cough and i looked up to a hurt face of Nick. i wonder what he was hurt about.

He just stalked off without a word. Charlie got up to follow him but i toold him i would sort this out and to go back to the guys. I chased after Nick and i finally caught up with him.

'Nick, wait up. Whats wrong? What happened?' i asked him. God, so much drama.

'Congratulations on you and Charlies relationship you have going there. Thanks for telling me, i thought we were cool!' he stalked out and it took a few seconds to process what he told me. He thought i was going out with Charlie? Why? I then replayed what happened before with me sitting on his crotch. Shit, but why was he upset?

'What the fuck? We arent going out!' he scofffed.

'Yeah ok and i own a unicorn that i ride to school everyday.' Why the hell is he acting like this?

'Fine dont believe me but why are you so upset. Evan if we were going out you should be happy for your friends. Why are you acting like this?' he grabbed my wrist that was hitting his firm, solid , tan chest and pulled me close to me and kissed me.

The whole world froze at once.

Before i could respond he pulled back. What the hell. my brain coudnt evan function proably.

'I shoudnt have done that. Its wrong. Your not good for me.' that pulled me out of the trance i was in. Im not good for him. What did that mean?

'Im not good enough for you am i?' he nodded then snapped his head up.

'No, im mean yes i mean no.' he stumbled over his words. Tears spilled from my eyes.

This is the second time ive been hurt badly in the last two weeks. I hate life. Im not good enough to be here. That should have been me who died in the crash, not my parents. I ran back to get my stuff. i didnt run i more like sprinted with tears spilling down my cheeks. i grabbed mystuff and i recieved looks from Kyle, Ethan and Charlie. They saw me running then Nick running behind me. They told me to run and they'll take care of him. I gave them a wave a ran back to the dorm faster then i have ver done in my life. I got my main things i needed and ran down to the student car park. I put on my helmet then started my bike. It roared to life. I pulled out of the garage just as Nick was running in the school. He looked over my way and started running towards me. I pulled out of the school and out of everybodys life forever.

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Nick's P.O.V

Why the fuck did i kiss her and said shes not good enough for me? I realised that i really liked her. Her smile, her laugh , everything about her. When she pulled out of the school it felt like that was the end. It was goodbye forever and i will never will get to tell her how i feel.

This might sound corny and really weird or out of the blue,

To be honest, one of my favorite quotes is " you miss 100% of the shots you don't take" and this is my shot, my shot with you. Who was that friend that always brings up quotes??? Oh that was you, another one of the things you helped me with.

I really like her . And I enjoy having her in my life and if she didnt want a relationship, than i would always open to keeping our friendship. I just want her to be happy, if that's with me, or mark the milkman I don't care, I just want to see you and your beutiful face smiling . But i would love more then anything to be my girlfriend.

I sat down on the sidepath and put my head in m hands. Before i knew it i felt water in my hands. I cried. I havent cried in ages. When she first saw me she thought i was a player and i guess i am. I've slept with so many girls i dont evan remember their names. I get here name and number. Organise the date. Say i enjoyed and i want to see them again. Take them on the second date, have sex with them then the nex day i would txt them saing i wanted to break up. Ive left so many girls heart broken.

It all started when i was 15. I met this girl called Alexandra and i fell head over heals for her. After three dates we were a couple. We went out for a year and i walked into her house with the spare key she gave me and i heard moaning. i thought it was her sister so i payed no attention to it. I walked up to her room and opened the door and what i saw before my eyes turned me into what i am now. She and some dude were going at it like rabbits. She saw me and waved her hand to dismiss me.

Ever since that day i date and ditch girls. But when i saw Allie, she took my breath away. Theres nobody else like her in the whole world. Shes original. Can not be replaced. Theres nobody like her.

I want her and need her.

But i lost her.