Finding Mara (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 1: Memories

(A/N: This diary entries are written by Mara when she was seven years old). 

Diary Entry #5 of #20

28th of May, 2002 | Saturday, 9 p.m

Dear Diary,

  I do not like today. Today makes me very sad. I wish today did not happened. I wish Harry didn't moved houses all the way from here to LA. It's okay that I don't have as many dolls as Kathy, that Kathy and Leslie and Marcie laughed at me because I only have one friend, and it's a boy, it's okay that my parents are in Spain because of their work and do not see me often (Granny and Gramps have to take care of me). Those things do not make me angry, Diary. But it makes me sad. I dont know why, it just did. Now that Harry is not with me anymore, I am really really really sad... I dont have a friend anymore.     I hate being sad, Diary. Granny said that 'Hate' is a very strong word, but that is why I used it. 

 Love,  Mara Moore <3  

- HARRY -   

"Hey, you okay, mate? What's wrong?"   

I gradually glanced up to the person, and realized that it was Louis. I sighed before nodding. I put down the diary on my lap.  

"Everything's fine. Don't worry," I said with a slight smile. Mara was my childhood best friend, we've been together since we were in diapers. Until we turn 7. My parents decided we should move across the country. Everything went hectic then. Six years passed by, and Mara went missing. No one knows where could she be, not even her parents. Three years passed by, and I decided to audition for the X Factor, so that there's more chance of finding Mara. But then, we still have no clue where she is. I only have her diary, her mother gave it to me the day she was reported missing.

  "Do you really think that I believe you? You have tears running down you face, man."

 My hands automatically went up to my face, searching for tear stains. There was none, though. I don't even remember crying, even though I was close to it. Huffing, I gave Louis an annoyed face.  

He chuckled, "Okay, okay you weren't crying. But there's obviously something bothering you. I've been observing you for the past few days, mate."  

I cocked an eyebrow at him. "That sounded creepy... Are you a spy or...?"  

He chuckled again, but then quickly turned serious.

"But seriously though Harry, you can tell me anything."

  "I know," I sighed again. I looked down. The diary was tearing apart, but one could still read the contents of it. The front cover was painted yellow, Mara's favorite colour. Pasted on the yellow cover, was a picture of us together when we were 6. Arms around each other's shoulders, mud on our face, rain pouring down on us, and genuine smiles plastered across our little innocent faces.  

I felt a tear ran down my face, and I hastily wiped it because Louis' just beside me, hoping he didn't notice. But too bad, since detective Louis is a detective, he looked at me worriedly.   

"Spill, mate."  

I paused. "This diary... I just can't help reading it all over again and wondering how much had changed. How much things had gone from happiness to sadness. I miss Mara so much, Lou. The fact that we hadn't had any contact for the last 10 years and that she's gone missing since then, breaks my heart. I feel like I can't live anymore. I know I 'moved on' a few years back, but the truth is, I hadn't really. Most nights I cried myself to sleep, most days I fake a smile and most days I wasn't genuinely happy. We have no idea where she is, what she's doing now, or who knows if she's still alive or n-" I stopped, and now I'm really crying. I couldn't bring myself to say the word, I don't even want to imagine it.

  Louis hugged me from the side. "Don't do this to yourself, Harry. Don't. Live your life. I'm absolutely sure that Mara will come back someday, just don't stress yourself like this. Harry, you've got your whole life in front of you. Live it, okay?" 

  I nodded, wiping away my tears. I just hope what he's saying is true.   

But I'm going to continue looking for her. I would do anything to have her back.