I walk hurridly down the hall, my face drenched with tears. I open the door that leads into the waiting room and spot Cameron. He sees me crying and rushes to my side. He holds me closely in his arms.
"I'll be here for you throughout it all. I won't leave your side, Selena. You're too good to have to go through this yourself." He rambles and I guess I should stop him right there.
"Cameron..." I push him off me and grab onto both of his hands. "I'm not pregnant." I smile as the last tear of joy falls down my face.
He hugs me again and picks me up, squeezing me tight then sets me down, "That's amazing! Thank God!"
I watch him calm down as we lock eyes, not paying attention to our still-connected hands between us. He leans down slowly, I match his lean and he shuts his eyes. He was going to kiss me?!
I come to my senses and back away and let go of his hands.
"Cameron! No! I will not allow you to mess with my feelings again!" I shout at him sternly causing a scene.
"But I-" he tries grabbing my hand but I quickly whip away.
"I said no." I snap once more and walk out of the office, heading to the car feeling strong but mad at the common sense I had left, that told me the smart thing to do; because that's just simply not what my heart wanted to happen. I wanted to kiss him so badly. I craved his touch every second of every day and I'm learning to finally admit that to myself. But I can't be with someone who can be as bipolar as he can. Act like we're best friends one moment and then act like he totally hates my guts the next.
I hop into the passenger seat and wait for Cameron to come into the car and start it. When he does, he doesn't say a word. Just starts the car and pulls out of the parking spot and begins to drive.
•••
"So you're saying you hate me?" He finally says out of no where as we pull back into the parking lot of the hotel.
"It's easier to make myself hate you then try and love someone that doesn't want to be loved."
And with that I jump out of the car and tears begin to form in my eyes as I walk inside of the hotel and to the elevator not even waiting for him. He was the most confusing human being that I think I've ever met. I needed to get my mind off this and move on quickly. That almost-kiss today Cam tried planting on me, really f*cked me up. He's acted like he hated me all week and then you leave him alone to let his mind wander and you come out to a whole new person acting like they love you? No, that's not how it works. And the sooner he realizes that, the sooner he can understand why his chances with me will always be ruined. No matter what kind of relationship it could've been. A friendship or something more. Doesn't matter, I'm done with him.
•••
I arrive in front of the hotel room 217. It was the room of my distraction for the night. Gilinsky. He was the second best looking out of all the guys and I'm not going to lie, he was so intriguing. Every time I thought of him, I thought of what he'd be like on our night. And now, that night has come.
I knock on his door with caution and take a deep breath trying to gather myself. It was hitting me for the first time that I was about to restart this whole thing once again. The guys didn't touch me the whole week until I went to doctor's for this prego scare so I couldn't say the baby was really one of the other guys. Also in the past week, Sam was shipped off the tour along with Carter, Maggie, and Nash too. His mom and dad caught word of what the guys were doing exactly with me and all and pulled him out before Hayes was sent to join us too. So that leaves me with my sex schedule looking like this:
