I need u •jikook•

MIANHAE

"I'm sorry"

Jeongguk swallows hard

"I love you"

He tries to remain strong, to hold it all in

"forgive me"

Those last two words break him, as he starts screaming and lets himself slide down the wall, titting the ground hard. He cries like he has never cried before.

Taehyung doesn't even look at him as he runs out of the room, Seokjin quickly following him.

Yoongi crouches down next to the crying boy, looking him straight in the eye. "You disgust me Jeon Jeongguk, you know that?". He walks away without another word, slamming the door as he walks outside. Hoseok just looks at him with dissapointment, not wanting to believe what his friend had done before running after Yoongi.

Namjoon sighs as he lets himself slide down the wall as well, sitting next to the younger boy. "Why?" The question feels heavy in the empty room. Namjoon grabs Jeongguks chin, forcing him to look at him. "Do you know what you've done? This can't be fixed Jeongguk." Another tear falls from the by his eye.

"I didn't know" he softly says. "What didn't you know?" "that he loved me."

Namjoon sighs as he throws his arm overhis shoulder, pulling the boy closer to him, stroking his hair. "Look at us Jeonggukkie. Is this what Jimin would've wanted?" Jeongguk starts crying even harder. He had never meant for any of this to happen. He was just afraid that he might like Jimin back. "I was scared hyung, so scared". Namjoon is surprised. "What do you mean?" Jungkook looks up at him. "It felt nice hyung, his lips moving against mine, having him so close, a- and I just-" Jeongguk stops talking when a loud hiccup leaves his mouth. Namjoon waits for him to speak again, slowly stroking his arm.

"I was scared that- that I am gay. And being gay is bad right? Everyone always told me i- it's bad. But Jimin wasn't bad and I was so confused and- and-" Jeongguk starts nervously scratching his arms with his hands. "I'm so sorry, oh god I am so sorry please make it stop please hyung I'm so so sorry"

Namjoon gently pries the boys hands away from his arms, making a mental note to check on those later. Something was telling him Jeongguk had known from the moment Hoseok came home crying. The boy was too young to carry something that big alone, and Namjoon was sure he wasn't as strong as he made himself look.

"Look at me kookie, it's going to be okay. Jimin loves you. He wants you to be happy. He knows you are sorry, I promise he does. He is watching over you, over all of us." A tear slips down the leaders face as well now, cradling the younger to his chest, whispsering sweet nothings into his hair. Jeongguk falls asleep like this, head filled with worries and guilt, but also seeing a bit of light for the first time in three months.