Unsent Letters #JustWriteIt #LoveLetters

Chapter 12

Dear you,
So, you got my letter didn't you? I know, this is another letter. I love you, sorry I said it too soon. Today is your birthday, March 3rd. I'm going to see you today if you went to school. I'm excited! Hopefully you're there. I want to see you smile, I want to make you smile. I've never seen your smile before, in person nor in pictures so I'll truly cherish that moment. I'm going to get ready today, I want to look pretty when I see you, oh did I tell you I'm going to try to say hi? Well, I'll be shaking and nervous but, after all these years....I think it's time for me and you to say hi. If I still went to school then I would hang out with you during break and lunch, you'll never feel like your alone....I'll make this feel like home, if you want. I know you hang out alone because that's what you would do at the junior high. I'm GOING TO SEE YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME IN LIKE YEARS OMG!!!!! I'm freaking out and I can't freaking believe it! Can you?! Like, I've been WAITNG for years to see your face. The places that I've seen you before, I always go back to those places. Like I've seen you walking by the place where we went to drink. You know I'm always coming back to this place, you know I'm always gonna look for your face. I honestly can't believe that I'm going to see you, wait. I don't even know if you went to school today because I told my friend to snapchat me if you went. Break is over and lunch is my last chonce to know. I'll wait for you after school, If you don't come I understand, but that's where I'll be. The thing is that, it's raining and my mom won't let me leave. I don't know what to tell her because she knows I like you but she doesn't want me to. I'm going to act like I'm so stressed being home and then ask if I can go to the public library. You guys get out at 3:40 so I have to be there soon. I really hope your there. I went to school on Monday because I heard you went on Thursday and Friday and that's not like you, so I know your starting to go to school again. But guess what, you didn't go on Monday, I tried so hard to hold back my tears. My friend that has P.E with you told me you didn't go. I left after lunch was over, I ran home crying. I didn't care what people thought about me. I was sad because I never get the chonce to see you, ever! Later that day around 8:30pm I ran away from home because I couldn't handle it anymore, my heart hurt, it burned. My parents couldn't find me and it was almost 10:00pm. I didn't take shoes or a sweater, it was a bit chilly. I was finally home and then it was Tuesday. My friend told me "what if he comes on Tuesday?" And I told her that I would be angry at you. You did go on Tuesday, it's like you know when I'm going and you don't go. When I'm not there..you go, it's like the universe doesn't want us together. I'm always looking for you, always. That morning was terrible. I woke up in pain both physical and emotional. I ended up puking so many times because I couldn't stop crying. I love you. Then it was Wednesday (yesterday) and you went to school. My friends gave you the letter I wrote for you, I told her to try her hardest to give it to you because it means the world to me, and guess what? She did. Can you believe it? I've been writing these letters to you and I wrote you one on paper and YOU finally have one of my letters, that's incredible. She walked up to you and said "this is for you, read it" and then you asked "for me?" She said yea and walked away. I went to sleep yesterday thinking about what you thought about my letter. This time I included my name, I didn't say...you know my name x. You know who I am so, when you read my name I know I popped into your head. Well, I love you. Hopefully you did go to school, I'll see you later? Ok, take care, please.
All the love,
                             Monique X