These days all the things that I thought abaut,they are slowly disappearing.My mind is constantly looking for something important, like a part of me wants only to return back and find out who it is really me and the other part is just there wonting to be me,to find my new self.Toughts about this come to me every day and,here in the hospital where i am i feel safe..like i know this place.Suho told me that me beeing a doctor maybe has something to do with that,but other then that i am going aut of the hospital in 2 days and i am not so sure how to feel abaut that.I have to face the world,go to old work and for all that i know i am moving in to Suho's place.Its not like that,he is just a really good friend who is helping me.Suddeny the door of my room force me to focus on Dr.Jin and his cold glance makes me froze of fear that something is wrong,while he just says "Your free to go Ms,your friend is comeing to pick you up you just have to sing the paper work". Of course I completely confused,wonder and ask him "why"? As he was to answer me Suho comes in and grabs my hand,giving me that look that everything will be fine.
As I sign the papers,Suho is shakeing hands with Dr.Jin. We say aurs goodbyes.Finally i give the last look at the hospital in which I was the last one month,and with no emotional look i just turn around and go,hoping to find abaut myself and who i was. Is it possible? I sure hope so
After 2h drive,we are finally in front of the big house that looks like its honestly made for like 20 people to leave there,so after much thought as i am to open my mouth Suho interrupt me and says "just open the door".But ...but before i can do anything the door opens and i swear i see the boy with such big ears and he just says "Hyung,you are finnaly here" leaveing me behind as i stay in my position with big eyes.. "Suho what is this..?" he just looked at me Innocently saying "So noona,you know how i told you that i am doctor and director at this hospital that you work at,actually that is khm how to say this my side job,i am in fact a singer in this popular band and we have to live far so aur fans dont find aut where we leave at,so please dont freak aut its okey and please dont be mad at me." He said and i just stood there like what what,say that again.I have to live with kpop band members in this vila thing for the next few weeks i cant,how can i? I am just a normal women that has a not so normal life and as i tought,something had to go wrong..wae?
Then the boy with big ears just looks at me and with eye smile says "Welcome home,i am Chanyeol" and in shock as i wont to say hi,the other 10 boys or so just look at me with smiling faces ans i just tought what did i get myself into?
30mins later
"HEY HEY KIDS,LUHAN NO JUST PUT HER STUFF DOWN,HEY LAY DONT FALL ASLEEP YOU HAVE TO HELP AS MOVE HER IN YOU TO KRIS,YOU ARE COOL FOR NOTHING MOVE THAT CHICKEN STYLE ASS(you all see what i did there haha?) AND HELP" yeah this is going to be fun at least they can help me a little,and chear me on.They are pretty funny and have a lot of perosaletys and i cant belive Suho is like mother to them,since i came in the house he has been like that.And after a 1h of geting my stuff in we all have been so tired and we got on the couch and start to talk abaut us,everybody started to laugh at some of the storys Sehun as the youngest was tolking but as it was turn on me to say something abaut myself i just didnt know what to say abaut me, i dont know who am i ,how can i tell the others that i dont know anything besides my name? I was so deep into thinking that i didnt noticed that the tears flowed down my cold cheeks.i look up to them and say " i really cant talk right now but you can sing for me,that wil make me happy,please do" and the guitar strings startet to move with Chanyeol's fingers as they sang the beautiful melody of the song..
"The way you cry, the way you smile
Do you know how much you mean to me?
Words I wanna say, words I lost
I'll confess to you though it might sound awkward
Just listen, I'll sing for you, sing for you
Just listen, I'll sing for you"
is the last thing i hear as i close my eyes
