Only For Myself

Chapter 6

We have one day to prepare for the Forest of Death. I'm honestly prepared but I know Naruto and Sakura aren't.

"Uh, hey" I hear someone say. I look over and I see Gaara. What is he doing here?

"Hi" I said.

"What are you doing here" I asked.

"I wanted to know why you avoid me" he asked.

Well I mean, he was my first love and he hurt me, so I mean , that's why.

"Its...well.. I don't wanna talk about it." I tell him.

"Is it because I'm a freak, huh, huh" he yelled, grabbing me by my collar.

"No its not! I said I didn't wanna talk about it! No wonder people call you a freak!" I yelled.

His eyes started to soften.

"Wait Gaara no I di---"

"Save it. I thought that you were the one person who accepted me for me but no, your just like the others" he said. Then he disappered.

I felt a tear in my heart, so I decided to go find Naruto.

Knock knock

"I'll get it" I hear a girl say.

I saw a girl in only her bra and underwear answer the door.

"Who are you" she snarls.

"Naruto's girlfriend" I say.

"What are you talking about, we've been dating for three months" she said.

"Oh, sorry for being a burden then" I said.

I went to go find Kakashi.

"Kakashi sensai" I yelled.

"Hmm" he said.

"I have to drop out of the Chunin exams" I said.

"What, why, you can't do that, it's to late" he said, looking shocked.

"Well can I at least make a clone and have it take the exams for me" I asked.

"I'm sorry but that's just to risky" he said.

"But Kakashi please, I can't take it anymore, I'm going to drive myself insane if I do that, plus a team consist of three people, I'm just a burden" I tell him.

"Fine, but only on one comdiditon, you can never take the Chunin Exams again" he said.

"Fine, I guess I'll stay a genin the rest of my life" I tell him, then I walk away.

I go to the top of the Hokage rock mountain with my guitar and start playing a song.

Battle Scars (Lupe Fiasco)

"The wound heals but it never does
That's cause your at war with love
Your at war with love, yeah

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
The ain't never gonna change
These battle

Never let a wound ruin me
But I feel like ruin's wooing me
Arrow holes that never close from a cupid shooting spree
Feeling stupid cause I know it ain't no you and me
But when your trying to beat the odds up
Been trying to keep your nods up and you know that you should know
And let her go but the fear of the unknown
Holding another lover strong sends you back into the zone
With no Tom Hanks to bring you home
A lover not a fighter on the front line with a poem
Trying to write yourself a rifle
Maybe sharpen up a song
To fight the tanks and drones of you being alone

I wished I never looked, I wished I never touched, I wish that I can stop loving you so much
Cause I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle

You shouldn't have but you said it
(And I hope you never come back)
It shouldn't have happened but you let it
Now you're down on the ground screaming medic
The only thing that comes is the post-traumatic stresses
Shields, body armors and vests
Don't properly work, that's why you're in a locker full of hurt
The enemy within and all the fires from your friends
The best medicine is to probably just let her win

I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love
I wish that I could stop cause it hurts so much
And I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle

I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love
I wish that I could stop cause it hurts so much
And I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over

Cause you've set me on fire
I've never felt so alive, yeah

Hoping wounds heal, but it never does
That's because you're at war with love

And I'm at the point of breaking
And it's impossible to shake it

See, you hoped the wound heals, but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love
Hope it heals, but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love!

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle"

I practically sang my heart out, but it was 10:53 at night, so I decided to go to sleep in the grass on top of the Hokage mountian.