Brinley's POV.
The smoke filled room, the blaring music, and the smell of alcohol all bring me back to the place where I first met him. Where I swore to myself I'll never go back to that place again. Where I swore I'd never put myself in that much pain and be vulnerable to anyone. But, I did, and I'll continue to go until the pain is drowned out. Until I drink to the point of blacking out, and to the point of being emotionless. Numb. That's what I want to be again.
As I push past the hormonal teenagers who's biggest worry is getting laid, and I make my way to the kitchen. I find beer, but it's not strong enough for me anymore. It'll take edge off, but it won't get me drunk fast enough or cause the burning in my throat that eventually turns into a warm feeling to happen. I eventually begin to try to find something stronger, and in the end it's either beer or vodka. Finally deciding upon vodka.
I just want his burning image out of my mind, and heal what has been broken and damaged inside of me. The pain is only gone when I'm to drunk to even stand, let alone think. The alcohol will eventually be gone, and in the morning I'll have to face a hangover, and than go through that same heartbreak.. But, to get him out of my head for a night is worth it.
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Before I knew it I had gone through that whole bottle, and now I'm letting some guys do body shots off of me. Feeling their warm mouths over the flesh that I hate the most on my body, but the experience was over all enjoying. I was actually laughing. Something I haven't been able to do without him. But, even now I'm not drunk enough if he keeps occurring in my mind.
After they finish doing their shots off of me I stand to get another bottle of vodka, or maybe even beer. But, but I was taken aback when I felt an arm slide across my waist, to only find one of the guys who took shots off of me.
"Want to get out of here, and go upstairs" his warm alcohol drenched breath fans across my face. Before I even know what I'm doing I nod my head, and he starts to lead me toward the staircase.
Authors note:
I picture Brinley being played by Emily Rudd (tumblr famous)
I will give you a list of who I picture to play who. But, also feel free to let yourself imagine what they look like!
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