RusCan: Winter Nightmares (Sequel to Snowy Relationships)

Chapter 22: Apart

Chapter 22: Apart

14 Months later

(Trigger warning: mention of self harm)

Russia slowly lifted his head from his pillow, the alarm clock already giving him a headache. He looked around as the alarm sounded, he could imagine Matthew laying there next to him sleepily waking up and telling him to turn off the alarm in the softest voice. He reached over and turned it off, seeing the early three am hour glowing upon it. He slowly got up from his bed, walking into his bathroom and turning on the blinding lights. The shower started, he undressed, he stopped and looked in the mirror; pathetic. He looked at a pale tired man, the scars on his throat weren't the only scars on his body anymore. He cracked his neck a bit and looked down at the bloodied marks upon his arms; he realized how ashamed his sisters would be of him... Matthew too.

He let the hot water wash away the dry blood, standing there until the water went cold. Even then, he didn't get out. Eventually, he wondered out into his room, dried and dressed. He grabbed his luggage and carried it down to the front door, dropping it there as he went to go grab breakfast. Wondering into the kitchen however, he slowed to a stop and looked around.

"I made you some breakfast!" He could hear echoing in his head. "I made pancakes with some maple syrup, and that weird meat thing you like. Oh, coffee too!" Russia closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He went toward the fridge, placing his hand on the handle but stopping again. He grabbed on tightly for a second, then quickly let go. He decided he wouldn't have breakfast today.

He heard a taxi beep from outside and slowly but surely made his way out with his luggage. He sat in the back and rested his head against the window. Again, he could hear Matthew's voice, talking about how he had done this with the hotel room and that with Kuma, and when we got home how we would....

He couldn't believe how Canada was still with him... After all this time...

OOOOO

The meeting was the same as always.

Russia stayed to himself, barely writing down notes down as America went along in his usual bullshit and Germany continued to shut him up. Canada tried to pay attention too, but his eyes kept wondering back to Russia. For the first time in two months he was able to see Russia. He wanted to talk with him, not having talked to him since the hospital. Every call and every text, ignored. He wondered if he would ever get to talk to Russia again. Today, he thought, was his only chance. Canada watched the Russian though, seeing him stare blankly at the empty notebook page below him. He frowned and tried looking away but kept drawing his eyes back until Kuma pulled on his sleeves to bring his attention away.

Words shouted out between the nations came out, ranting about this or that, then bringing up some serious issues. From all the terrorism to the diseases that have recently become very threatening, the nations argued on what to do. All of them never agreed on anything, even on things this serious. Canada tried to get involved again but his ideas of leave that country alone or do something with this or that were never really good enough. It turned into a battle of political leaders, then Canada making the smart remark of "if Trump gets elected, I'll be gladly opening up the borders for some poor American bastards", which America didn't find funny but almost everyone else did. Canada, smiling that his comment brought smiles to others faces, looked to see if Russia too found it funny. Why wouldn't he love bashing America jokes? However, the Russian was only sitting back in his seat writing down in his notebook now, no change in emotion with such a blank look still. Canada's smile soon faded.

Once the meeting was over, they all collected their things. As Canada packed his messenger bag, he looked up to see where Russia was heading, only to find the Russian had already left! He quickly hurried his packing then ran toward the exit where he could hopefully see the Russian again. He walked into the main hallway where he saw Russia heading into the bathroom. He wondered over to the bathroom and stood outside the door with Kuma in his arms. He took a deep breath but Kuma only sighed, "Why are you waiting for him?"