The Dark and the Desperate

•Can't get it out my head•

The courtyard is the perfect place to be when you want peace, quiet, and a beautiful view of the ocean. I need time to reflect on last night. Right now thats all I could think. 2 weeks in the year and I already had sex. With the most popular guy in school. I hope Kirsten doesn't find out...or i'm in BIG TROUBLE. Ughh! This year might not go so well.

When I get back to my dorm I plop on my bed. The thought of it just won't leave my mind. I wish I had someone to talk to...but Dana is doing extra curricular activities and I wouldn't DARE have a conversation with these two weirdos! L I F E. S U C K S ! I can't believe I had sex already...WITH THE MOST POPULAR GUY IN SCHOOL. But my real problem is Kirsten!

Its lunch time and to be honest...Im not that impressed. I expected a gourmet meal at least (not to be spoiled). On my plate was an undercooked chicken tender, mushed green stuff, and mushed brown stuff! Not that appealing! I hesitated to take a bite...
Its actually pretty good. Wow...its look revolting but tastes heavenly.

As i'm walking outside, I notice Jonathan. He's walking with his head at his phone. He looks up and notices me. "Hey babe" he says. I don't know what to say. "Hi" He says, "Wanna hang out tonight?" "Umm I have plans with Dana tonight (I really don't) ...maybe tomorrow. "So...how ya been" Why is he asking me all these questions!!!" "Ive been alright" "Umm...I have to get too class. "See ya" I walk away as if i'm in a hurry to get their. When he's out of site, I sit on the nearest bench. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!! I can't take this relationship. Half of me wants to continue with it and the other half want to break up with him immediately! I am under too much stress. I need to relax. Get away from the situation. As i'm headed back to my dorm, guess who I run into...DANA! OMG girl i'm so happy to see you. I've been waiting all day...listen...I can't think straight! All I can think about is what I did with Jonathan. This so far has been hectic. I mean...Dana cuts me off. "Listen, I have some bad news. " What tell me!" I said anxiously. "On my way back here, I ran into Kirsten and she had a lot to say! "She said, I heard about Alexis and Jonathan's little date and how they got down and dirty. "In my mind i was like...DOWN AND DIRTY WHAT THE FUCK!!" "She continued with, shes in for a rude awakening. She should have never had sex with him. I will make sure she pays for it." "I walked away after that" Dana explained. "Why does she even care?" I said. " I don't know, but it must be a very serious reason if shes taking it this far." Dana responded. I couldn't talk anymore. "I gotta go...I need to get some rest." We dismissed.

When I get back to my dorm, I was surprised about what I was greeted by...or should I say who i was greeted by. Bethany and Lilian look like TOTALLY different people. Bethany has res hair and lots of makeup. But it looks good. And Lilian has Blonde and blue ombre hair and also lots of makeup. They don't look like creeps anymore. "Hey whats up" Bethany says. "Umm...you too changed a lot!" Oh yea we always dress like this...our friends just dared us to acts like total weirdos towards you for the first few weeks" "And you actually did it! Thats stupid" "Ehh its seemed pretty cool at the time" "Yea it really did" said "Lilian. "So you do talk" I said. "Yea." said Lilian. "We are your friends." "Well i'm glad that I can come into my dorm to some cool people and not some weirdos all the time.  "I have to go...see ya later."