To be honest don't even know what to say he said hes not gonna date any one cause hes moving this summer he should have told me that like before i started liking him.I don't know what i'm gonna do with out him hes my best friend were gonna hang out today i think but i don't what him to go like for real have you ever lost your best friend well this it 10 times worse try falling in love with your best friend then find out hes moving it hurts but i don't know what to say.Like to be honest I've lost a lot of friends but i cant lose this one.Like why am i born with a stupid life tired of this life like for real.Why would he have to move now like now out of all times.I held in all my emotions to long cried my self to sleep last night blamed everything on my self lost a friend last night cause i went off on them.them. I've changed a lot I've the years 1-4 grade i did not care what anybody thought about me did not like boys at all did not give a care in the world but things have changed a lot 5th grade i started caring heard people talking about me and i changed that year changed what i looked like and what i acted like ever sense then I've cared what people thought.thought. I'm trying to get better grades and get my life together trying to not get in trouble at school or with the cops as much my mom whats me to be a good kid even though she lied to me half of my life she lied about who my dad was.Then my half sister told me about how my mom did not tell me i did not know she was my half sister at the time she told me tho so when i got home i asked my mom if i could see my birth papers my mom said she would try to find it a few weeks later she handed it to me were it said mom her name was there were it said dad it was blank.She sat there and talked to me i have not looked at my step dad the same i realized i was different from ever one else in my family.But any way back to the boy thing i like him a lot if u cant tell and i told him he was not allowed to move pretty much all my other friends turned on me so hes like all i have left and if he moves i'm alone ill have like 3 friends left and that is it hes different from my friends tho he knows how to cheer me up he can just look at me and know when something it wrong with me.He can tell when i'm depressed when i'm trying not to show him.i miss hanging out with him tho but i'm happy we get to hang out today cause we need to talk about this in person all we have done is tell each other we like each other in text every time i ask him about it in real life he don't tell me or he just stares at me.
