Westvillesburgh

Matt

   Hi, I'm writing a little bio here real quick then you can continue to read about my love for my boyfriend. My name is Matthew Hodson and I'm 17 and I was born and raised in Westvillesburgh, Washington. My dad walked out on my mom after 8th grade and my best friend slash boyfriend was there for me...and yeah now you're caught up. Carry on.

   I love him...Luke just....he's my Mr. Right honestly. He and I went to the beach today and after the little shower fling this morning, today was wonderful. I drove down to the beach and we did cutesy stuff like him sitting on the end of the dock and me pushing up towards him to kiss him. He smiled at me and said, "I know you're athletic but you don't have to rub it in."

I laughed and said, "I wasn't."

"Ok..sure." He rolled his eyes in a cute way to show he's being fun not meaning to be rude.

"So are you going to swim or are you just going to sit here while I kiss you in 10 second intervals?" At this he smiled and slid off the dock into the lukewarm spring water of the Pacific.

     We swam around and we raced to the closest buoy and back. I swear I can't live without him...It's weird he felt the same way...How could he? Is he just messing with you? I kept asking myself, because it was too good to be true. The way this played out was like a fanfic...which is weird. Maybe I'm overthinking it. Or maybe he's planning on hurting you! But why would he take a shower with me and sleep with me? Why was he kissing me if he doesn't feel the same...? I'll ask him, I think that it'll be fine because we're best friends...maybe I'm overthinking it.

"Hey Luke..." I ask as I am about to swing on a rope swing off the short cliff. He looked up at me and smiled.

"Yea?"

"Are you really inlove with me?" He looks concerned.

"Yes of course. Why are you asking?" He swam over to the stair kind of area and climbed up to me. He kissed me deeply and said, "I really love you. You have nothing to worry about."

I smiled and said, "Ok, I was just worried-" I was cut off by him saying, "I have always loved you, I am actually worried as to if you love me."

"Of course I love you. I have since freshman year."

"Do you remember when you found out you loved me? Because I remember when I fell for you." He smiled at me like a little kid looking at his first crush...was I his...?

I sat on the edge of the cliff and he sat with me. I looked into his greenish blue eyes...those gorgeous eyes I always get lost in...Ah! snap out of it. I still remember the first moment I saw love in his eyes...right after my dad left. That July morning, Dad walked out with a suitcase of clothes. No words, no hug, he didn't even look back at me or mom. He walked out of our lives forever. That day, I wanted to run away from home...I only made it to Luke's house but we sat on the roof (Dan hadn't added the extension yet so we had roof access which we don't have now) and he looked in my eyes as a tear broke through. That's when I knew. I shouldn't keep him waiting in this wonderful little flashback.

"Yes I remember exactly. It was that July morning when my dad left. Remember, we went on the roof and you looked into my eyes and you were the only person who ever saw me cry other than mom. You wiped the tears away and smiled at me while saying, 'He didn't deserve such an awesome kid' and that's the moment I fell. I saw the love in your eyes and I knew I'd never see in anyone what I saw in you." He smiled at me so brightly and kissed me. I smiled back and said, "When did you fall for me?"

"We were a lot younger, but about 7 or 8. We were listening to music in my room, it was one of my mom's CD's and the song was something like 'The Reason' and it didn't make that much sense back then but all I remember is us playing around with paper and making paper airplanes to throw through the window. I remember looking at you so weirdly happy about the airplanes and the song saying 'I found a reason for me, to change who I used to be, a reason to start over new, and the reason is you' and ever since then I changed who I was inside and realized then that it was you that I had to be with. Through everything. When you were hurt I instantly wanted to hold you and pull you through it. I didn't know it when I was only 7 or 8, but once I got an understanding about what in love means, it was you who I realized I was in love with." Wow. He knows how to hit every single personal, emotional nerve. And I loved this about him. I was speechless. I just smiled and kissed him...I had no clue what to say. Finally the words caught up to me as I stood up.